B is rollin!

B rolled over for the first time! To see the video and read what happened, see his blog babywootton.blogspot.com. I am too lazy to type it all twice. : )

Summer Time!

I love summer! I'm so glad it's here but I dont feel like I do much of anything these days, but I did have a fairly busy week. Tuesday we went to lunch with Jer who found a job! YAY. Wednesday we went and had lunch with Heidi and Mia and that was lots of fun! Thursday Savannah and I went and had some girl time. We went shopping and I got my hair cut (which I think I love, but I need to practice with it a bit) then Yesterday I took Savannah and Nathan to Cherry Hill with Kelly and the girls and that was so much fun! Today I am spending time at home with B since I didn't see him a whole lot the last two days and missed him like crazy!

It is so nice to be able to go out and do things when I'm not working! One of the great perks of teaching!

I have tons more pics of B so I'm going to post another slide show.

Memorial Day

For Memorial Day, we went to Moab. It's the first time I have ever been there and it was fun. The weather was rainy but it kept it nice and cool. We went on a couple hikes and hung out around camp. B was really good on the drive (he slept all the way home - phew - and wasn't way too fusy on the way there). But Saturday he was so fussy all day. It was really hard and I was ornery due to lack of sleep. But overall we had a great time! Here are some pics.

Catching Up

So I haven't posted much lately. REally there isn't much going on. Still home from work for two more weeks so I haven't done much but take care of B. He is getting so big. Already 12 pounds 4 ounces. He will be 8 weeks tomorrow!! Its going by so fast. He is still colicy and really fussy. I have a hard time taking him out because I hate the looks people give me when he cries...like its my fault? Yesterday in Shopko a lady had the nerve to ask, "whos the mom?" She said it rude when someone else was holding B when he was screaming. I felt like saying, "F!!! Off" but I smiled and said, "I am." But hopefully it wont last too much longer and he will grow out of it. He is sleeping a little better during the day and that helps and gives me a break.

Jer is working like crazy and not getting anything special for it, but a pay check and gets to keep his job. If they dont work their boss says they get fired. But he is gone about 14 hours a day and it really sucks that we never see him and when he does get home he showers eats and goes to bed.

Nothing else new. Just debating on how I feel about going back to work. Dont want to leave him and dont want to work, but at the same time I think it will be nice to get away a little and get away from the crying and constant soothing. It wears me out : )

Hope everyone is doing well and I hope all the moms have a great Mother's Day!!!

Doctor Appointment

Need to vent.

So I took B to the doctor today because he has had screaming episodes the last two evenings. They lasted about 6 hours each night, but it was scream, nap, scream, nap, scream, nap, etc. Naps were about 20 minutes each and screaming 30 or more minutes. I about lost my sanity and it's so hard to see him cry and not be able to sooth him. Its the worst feeling in the world! Plus Jer hasn't been getting home until 9 so I am alone all day and all night with B. I love him but it is draining not being able to put him down a whole lot and not getting naps in because he usually doesn't sleep long enough for me to fall asleep and get a good nap. I end up waking up more tired. Anyway...

He is 11 lbs 1 oz. That is the 75th percentile. Big Boy!

She thinks he is colicy which is something he will just have to grow out of and the screaming fits are something we will just have to deal with while they are happening. She is having me put him on formula for a week to see if that helps because there may be something in my milk upsetting his belly. I am not happy about this and it makes me feel like a bad mom. I feel like I can't provide for him now. PLus I have to pump after each feeding to keep my supply up so it's just going to take twice as long and be harder now. I'm really upset about this.

She also told me to put him down and let him cry if I can't sooth him and I get frustrated. I know her reasonings behind this, but I dont think I can do that. I can't sit in the other room and listen to him scream knowing I'm not even trying to help calm him. I would just get more frustrated listening to that from the other room.

Arg.

This sucks.

I feel like shit.

Poor Bracken. Hopefully he grows out of it sooner rather than later. And hopefully these fits are only a few times a week and not a nightly episode because it is so draining on both of us. I just sit and cry with him for most the time. What a crappy day. I hope it helps him being on formula because I am really opposed to doing it. If it doesn't help change his behavior then it will be a waste and I will be even more upset.

BaBy BrAcKeN

Hello to all! For everyone who keeps asking...things are going well! It is so freaking hard being a mom and I am completely overwhelmed most of the time, but I also love it. Everyone says it is hard, but you don't really understand how hard until it happens to you! And he is pretty fussy some days and just doesn't sleep well at nights, so that is really hard on me. I love seeing him grow (he is so big already) and all the little developments and changes in him. At his two week appointment he had grown almost a pound putting him at 8 lbs 11 ounces and 21 inches, which means he grew about 3 inches! That is crazy and I can tell he is even bigger since then. We take tons of pictures, so I am adding another slide show. I am slightly obsessive with taking pictures, I know, but he is so cute that I can't help it.

Bracken Pictures