What a Horrible FUCKING Weekend!!!

When things start to go bad it seems EVERYTHING goes bad. I have officially had the worst weekend of my entire life!

This weekend my grandmother died. I feel like I have lost a piece of myself. I will write a dedication to her when I finish here.


Although that was by far the worst part of my weekend, my nephew also was in the hospital with complications on his tonsil removal.


Jeramie's dad is in the hospital and has liver damage and we dont know what is going on with him and his health right now. He is in pretty bad shape and I seriously think he is losing his mind. I dont know if it is the medication he is on or what, but he is not himself right now.

They say things happen in threes and maybe my 3 was having 3 loved ones in the hospital yesterday but there was also a 4th horrible thing...but I'm not comfortable sharing it. It was not the worst thing but definitiely just threw me through another hoop this weekend.

Why does life fall apart all at once???

Getting a Belly!

So, I think I am officially getting a belly! I am starting to get some stares and people looking at my belly...some who know I'm preg and some who don't. I often can't do up the button on my pants! I think it is funny and so cute!! I love it!! I want to be a little bigger though so people know I'm actually pregnant and I don't just have a beer belly. : ) I wore a skirt today and a pretty tight shirt and I thought it was cute seeing my belly so I had Jer take a picture and thought I would share it! I can't wait to be a mom and love that I can see that my baby is growing in me! What a wonderful feeling!! My next appointment is in 9 days!!

Labor Day!!

For Labor Day this year, we went on a fun camping trip with Linda & Ed, Chris & Jenny with cute Bailey, Adam & Erin and us. It was so much fun! We had to sleep in a tent and nights were really windy and cold, but it was a lot of fun. The weather was nice besides the nights (I didn't get any sleep this weekend). I didn't take any pictures but I stole all of Lindas (and her captions - thanks Linda!!). It is amazing how much fun we have together!! I love my family!!

Jer & me...what a great view behind us!!

Bailey with her parents

Bailey with her gramps and grandmaWhy do we like her so much?
Girls around the campfire Cade and Chris - brothers in love!
Cade and Shanda
All of us at the Goosenecks
Shanda and Jeramie...I don't know why he wanted us to do this pose??? Weird Jeramie. haha
Jenny, Chris and Bailey - look at Bailey's hair!
Boys around the campfire.
This is a huge fire that the boys built - Of course...no surprise.
This is our camp spot. Ed & Jeramie put up a little roof so we wouldn't get wet! I don't even know what to say about this.
Jeramie riding his hog
Bailey sitting on the steps of the Fruita house (in Capital Reef).
Checking out the view
I think these guys are partied out Cade & Janelle's dogs in their turtlenecks
Adam putting out the fire
Hahahahaha! This picture is so funny! He is putting his head through the doggie doorJanelle and Linda at the Fruita house.
Bailey and Gramps in their hats Shanda, Jenny and Bailey - next year there will be another baby in the photo!
Boys standing in the rain
Once again, what do I say?
Erin and Shanda
Shanda and Cade at the Fruita house This is the Gifford house in Fruita where my great grandparents lived and my grandma grew up
Cade and Nell taking a photo of themselves. They didn't want anyone else to do it!
Shanda and Linda
How many boys does it take to light a barbeque? All of them!
Bailey with her chair Cade and Vixen in his new hammock
Ed made himself this sandwich! Um...HUNGRY??
Jeramie chillin' in the hammock
Nell had to empty the tanks. Hahahaha! She showed that poop who's boss!

I'm Going To Be A MOM...Tear...

So I was just updating my baby blog and getting ready to update this blog...I know I haven't done much lately but I have been SOOO busy at work. I have been working about 12 hours a day and only getting paid for 8 but that is my life as a teacher. More on that later, anyway, I was signing my baby blog and I put "love you, Mom" and I started getting tears in my eyes. I am actually going to be a mom!! I just realized I don't really know how to be a mom. I've heard so many people say it comes naturally and maybe it will, but what if I don't know what I'm doing? What if I don't know how to be a good mom?? But most of all...I'm going to be a mom! A MOM! That sounds so weird to me.

Enough of that. I had my first baby doctor appointment yesterday. We got a lot of information, I got a lot of blood taken (and I didn't pass out! Phew!) and we got to hear the babies heartbeat!! It was so precious. I got tears in my eyes then too (ok...I'm such a baby). It was so cute to hear though and really made me feel a thousand times better knowing that the baby is in there and alive and healthy. It was beating at 175 beats per minute. The doc said babies are between 120-160 but for the first appointment they are sometimes a little higher. He also said the heart beat was really strong for me only being 10 weeks.

He gave me a lot of information about doctor visits and things that will happen during my pregnancy. He calmed my fear of not getting enough protein and said to just eat how I normally do and the baby will be fine. The baby will take everything it needs and won't suffer...it will just be me who might start feeling it, but much better me than the baby! I am relived the baby knows to take all it needs! The doc said I am due March 19th and am right on schedule with my body and "insides." He said since I am small I will probably gain between 22-27 pounds but prob closer to 22. He also thinks I will deliver early because I am small and the baby will have no where to go. Maybe about 10 days early. The baby will likely be 6.5 pounds or smaller because he said I am too small to deliver a bigger baby and my body won't be able to stretch and grow enough to hold that big of a baby (lets hope for no 10 pounders because Jer was about 10!)

I can have as many ultrasounds as I would like, but my insurance will only pay for one, so I don't know if I will have many. My first one will be at 18 weeks to check the brain and lungs and internal organs...also the gender. He said I can do the gender at 16 weeks but could just wait until 18 weeks when he checks everything else. So I will proably wait. I hate waiting!

For my health...I have been feeling ok. Some days really good some really bad. I had the worst headache I have had in years this week and took some Tylonal which I feel really guilty about! Pretty much the same as before. I am always sick in the mornings and at night. I dont sleep well usually but have a huge appetite. Although I am miserable a lot, I am really trying to enjoy every minute of being pregnant and taking in all the joys of knowing there is a baby growing inside of there. Some of my pants are starting to get a little tight! and when I eat I get really bloated and I really look pregnant. haha!!

Sorry for the novel!! Miss everyone...feel like I haven't seen/talked to many of you since I started working!

Jeramie & Me

Fun Questions
•What is his name? Jeramie David Wootton
•How long have you been together? 5 years 8 months
•How long did you date? 1 year 6 months
•How old is he? 27 but 28 next week
•Who said I love you first? I don't remember but it was over text. haha. I think it was him
•Who is taller? Him...Isn't that the way it is suppose to be
•Who sings better? Um...neither??
•Who is smarter? Well Duh...
•Whose temper is worse? His for sure. He gets angry over nothing, especially when driving.
•Who does the laundry? We usually do our own, but I help him with his a lot.
•Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? He does. I wish I did.
•Who pays the bills? Me or they wouldn't get paid.
•Who mows the lawn? He does 100% of the time and is always on top of it. Thanks hun!
•Who does the dishes? We both do depending on who cooks.
•Who cooks dinner? Both do but usually him. I only cook boxed stuff he can actually cook : )
•Who drives when you are together? He does almost always, which is good because otherwise he just tells me how to drive.
•Who is more stubborn? Equally but both equally VERY stubborn!!
•Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Hum. Prob usually him. I am never wrong. haha jk.
•Who kissed who first? I kissed him, but he will swear he kissed me, but refer to the last questions.
•Who proposed? He did. I would never do that. It was cute with lots of flowers in our apartment.
•Who is more sensitive? Me by a long shot!
•Who has more friends? Probably him. But I am closer to my friends, but he is much more sociable.
Who wears the pants in the family? I do.

Breaking Dawn

To all those Twilight Series fans didn't you LOVE Breaking Dawn? I love love loved it! I got it Fri night and read for about an hour, then started reading sat at 2 and finished it Sunday about 10, reading on and off that whole time, besides my precious sleep time. haha. It is such a fast read. I thought it was really good and I love that I predicted almost everything that happened. I feel like I could have written the story line for her. That made it fun to read. I kept thinking..."I knew it, I knew it" haha. I won't mention anything specific for those of you who haven't had time to read it, but it was awesome and worth the read! I still think I liked the 3rd book, Eclipse the best though. What do you guys think about it?

Cherry Hill

Yesterday I went to Cherry Hill with my Aunt Kelly, Payton, Dahlia, Savannah, and Nathan. We had a lot of fun. It is a great place to go swim. They have a lot of other things to do there too, but we just swam the whole day. I got a little burnt but so did my brother and sister. We all had a good time!!