Cruzin!

It's been a while since I posted. Life is amazing and I am so happy. B is getting so big and I love being a mom more than anything in this world. I couldn't even imagine my life without him in it!

I just got back from the best vacation. I went on a cruise to the Caribbean with Amy, Stacy and Jen. Such great friends. We had such an amazing time. It was BEAUTIFUL and so good to relax and have a break. We spent a lot of time at Karaoke and on the Lido deck. We went dancing a lot, to the comedy shows and to the nightly, Vegas style, shows. We stopped in Cozumel, Belize and Grand Cayman. Isla Roatan was suppose to be a stop, but we didn't stop there because a storm came in. It was windy almost the entire time we were gone and one day was really stormy and it was hard to stand straight on the boat! I loved being pampered, having food cooked for me, my bed made each day and pulled down each night, nightly towel animals, not having to pay for anything, etc! I am thinking cruises are the only way to vacation! It was my 3rd cruise, but by far the best one I've been on!

Other than that, life is going well. I'm so much happier than I have been in years and am so excited to see what 2011 has in store for me. I'm still trying to sell the house and get a place for B and I to call our own. We are doing a short sale and the process is irritating and stressful! I'm just hoping for the best, but also trying not to worry so much about it. It will all work out in the end. Things turn out how they are suppose to, right?!

My New Life

So it is amazing how fast things happen and how fast life moves on. I am doing very well since the divorce and am so happy. I always knew I was unhappy, but I never realized HOW unhappy I was until now. I am really loving life. I love spending time with Bracken and playing with him. We go to the park as much as possible. He loves being outside and loves running around and playing. He is also very interested in books lately.

I have realized that I have the most supportive and best friends and family ever. Everyone supports me with all of my decisions and have been there to spend time with me and to keep my mind off things. I have had so many offers for people wanting to help do anything they can and my dad and brothers have been over many times helping around the house. My sister has spent a lot of time with me and helps with B a lot. I love everyone and want to thank everyone for their love and support. I have grown close with a few friends and gained a couple new friends that I really enjoy having in my life. It is fun to go out on weekends and watch movies and go get ice cream. I love that I can get out and do things I love again.

I also have completely changed my room with new furniture, tv, bedding, decor, etc. I love it and it makes me so happy to be in there. I am getting anxious to move and want to get out and start my life on my own, getting rid of the last ties and memories with Jer that I am patiently waiting to get rid of.

Dating. I didn't think I would be ready to date for a long time and didn't think I would be interested in anyone for years, but the dating life has been fun and I have also enjoyed getting to know some boys. It has been a long time since I have talked to guys that way and it is fun!

School is almost over for the year. I have 6 weeks off, but have class one of the weeks and have to work one of the weeks, so really I have 4 weeks off. I have had the best class this year and I will really miss them. I have 3 or 4 students that I have just absolutely fallen in love with this year and I will hate to see them move on to 6th grade. Maybe I can hold them back...hum. haha.

I am going to be a changed woman in a week and a half and I am excited and nervous for that, but I think it will be a good thing for me. One of the biggest decisions I have ever made in my life. I am really hoping all will go well.

That is an update on my life for now. I am truly happy and loving every minute of my life! Thanks for everyone who is a part of that!

Divorced

Well, it is official and I now feel comfortable announcing that Jer and I are getting divorced. We have definitely had our fair share of rough times the last 7 1/2years, but we have also had some great times. We both feel the time has come to move on to different things and go our seperate ways. We have started filing the paper work and he is moved out of the house. We have been very civil about things and he has been really good to help out around here as much as he can. I am

I feel like I am in a really good place right now. There is not a doubt in my mind that this is the right decision for us and I don't have any regrets. I feel very comfortable in my own skin and in my abilities to move on. I will have custody of Bracken and I am so excited to start this journey with him.

We are selling our house and my Trans Am if anyone is interested in buying :) I don't know where I will be moving yet, I need to get the house sold so I can see what our money situation will be like before I can make any decisions.

I am so thankful for all the fantastic friends and family I have that have helped me through this time. I appreciate all the calls and texts and emails supporting me and letting me know how much you love me and Bracken. I love you all too and am so lucky that I have you in my life.

ARG!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That feels better! :)

Catching UP

Well, I created a new post and it didn't save, so here I go again!

I keep getting on my blog to look at everyone else's blog and am tired of seeing my last post, so I have decided to update it. I know it's about time.

Things are going really well with Jer and I and I am loving being a mom. We are having so much fun watching B grow up! Work is going great for me. I have such a fun/great class this year that I just love! Jer is working semi-regularly, which is better that it has been, so that is good.

B Just got his first haircut and looks like such a stud! He is learning to walk, slowly but surely. He has slept through the night twice now! Good jub B! Twice in a year. We sure got the short stick in the sleeping issues!

We just remodeled our bathroom. It took about 6 weeks of planning, working and waiting, but it is finally done and it looks great! I love it! Well, anything would look better than the green countertops we had before! Everyone needs to come see it!

That is about all for now. We are super busy this month with birthdays and errands and B's party and baby showers and on and on and on. It will be a busy month for sure! Hope to see everyone soon! Love you all!

Life

Why is life so hard? I feel like I am pulled in so many directions right now and can't figure out the right path. I am stuck. Really struggling trying to figure out which path is going to be the best. The hardest part is I know what is the best but taking that step is so hard...How do you know what to do and how do you do it? I don't want to have regrets in my life and in my choices but not sure which decision I would not regret.

What to do...what to do...what to do...

Bracken

So cute. One of the pics from yesterday's shoot.