My Life's Current Events

Cruzin!

2011-01-19T18:15:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I posted. Life is amazing and I am so happy. B is getting so big and I love being a mom more than anything in this world. I couldn't even imagine my life without him in it!

I just got back from the best vacation. I went on a cruise to the Caribbean with Amy, Stacy and Jen. Such great friends. We had such an amazing time. It was BEAUTIFUL and so good to relax and have a break. We spent a lot of time at Karaoke and on the Lido deck. We went dancing a lot, to the comedy shows and to the nightly, Vegas style, shows. We stopped in Cozumel, Belize and Grand Cayman. Isla Roatan was suppose to be a stop, but we didn't stop there because a storm came in. It was windy almost the entire time we were gone and one day was really stormy and it was hard to stand straight on the boat! I loved being pampered, having food cooked for me, my bed made each day and pulled down each night, nightly towel animals, not having to pay for anything, etc! I am thinking cruises are the only way to vacation! It was my 3rd cruise, but by far the best one I've been on!

Other than that, life is going well. I'm so much happier than I have been in years and am so excited to see what 2011 has in store for me. I'm still trying to sell the house and get a place for B and I to call our own. We are doing a short sale and the process is irritating and stressful! I'm just hoping for the best, but also trying not to worry so much about it. It will all work out in the end. Things turn out how they are suppose to, right?!

My New Life

2010-06-29T10:03:00.001-07:00

So it is amazing how fast things happen and how fast life moves on. I am doing very well since the divorce and am so happy. I always knew I was unhappy, but I never realized HOW unhappy I was until now. I am really loving life. I love spending time with Bracken and playing with him. We go to the park as much as possible. He loves being outside and loves running around and playing. He is also very interested in books lately.

I have realized that I have the most supportive and best friends and family ever. Everyone supports me with all of my decisions and have been there to spend time with me and to keep my mind off things. I have had so many offers for people wanting to help do anything they can and my dad and brothers have been over many times helping around the house. My sister has spent a lot of time with me and helps with B a lot. I love everyone and want to thank everyone for their love and support. I have grown close with a few friends and gained a couple new friends that I really enjoy having in my life. It is fun to go out on weekends and watch movies and go get ice cream. I love that I can get out and do things I love again.

I also have completely changed my room with new furniture, tv, bedding, decor, etc. I love it and it makes me so happy to be in there. I am getting anxious to move and want to get out and start my life on my own, getting rid of the last ties and memories with Jer that I am patiently waiting to get rid of.

Dating. I didn't think I would be ready to date for a long time and didn't think I would be interested in anyone for years, but the dating life has been fun and I have also enjoyed getting to know some boys. It has been a long time since I have talked to guys that way and it is fun!

School is almost over for the year. I have 6 weeks off, but have class one of the weeks and have to work one of the weeks, so really I have 4 weeks off. I have had the best class this year and I will really miss them. I have 3 or 4 students that I have just absolutely fallen in love with this year and I will hate to see them move on to 6th grade. Maybe I can hold them back...hum. haha.

I am going to be a changed woman in a week and a half and I am excited and nervous for that, but I think it will be a good thing for me. One of the biggest decisions I have ever made in my life. I am really hoping all will go well.

That is an update on my life for now. I am truly happy and loving every minute of my life! Thanks for everyone who is a part of that!

Divorced

2010-05-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

Well, it is official and I now feel comfortable announcing that Jer and I are getting divorced. We have definitely had our fair share of rough times the last 7 1/2years, but we have also had some great times. We both feel the time has come to move on to different things and go our seperate ways. We have started filing the paper work and he is moved out of the house. We have been very civil about things and he has been really good to help out around here as much as he can. I am

I feel like I am in a really good place right now. There is not a doubt in my mind that this is the right decision for us and I don't have any regrets. I feel very comfortable in my own skin and in my abilities to move on. I will have custody of Bracken and I am so excited to start this journey with him.

We are selling our house and my Trans Am if anyone is interested in buying :) I don't know where I will be moving yet, I need to get the house sold so I can see what our money situation will be like before I can make any decisions.

I am so thankful for all the fantastic friends and family I have that have helped me through this time. I appreciate all the calls and texts and emails supporting me and letting me know how much you love me and Bracken. I love you all too and am so lucky that I have you in my life.

ARG!

2010-04-26T20:23:00.001-07:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That feels better! :)

Catching UP

2010-03-06T09:30:00.000-08:00

Well, I created a new post and it didn't save, so here I go again!

I keep getting on my blog to look at everyone else's blog and am tired of seeing my last post, so I have decided to update it. I know it's about time.

Things are going really well with Jer and I and I am loving being a mom. We are having so much fun watching B grow up! Work is going great for me. I have such a fun/great class this year that I just love! Jer is working semi-regularly, which is better that it has been, so that is good.

B Just got his first haircut and looks like such a stud! He is learning to walk, slowly but surely. He has slept through the night twice now! Good jub B! Twice in a year. We sure got the short stick in the sleeping issues!

We just remodeled our bathroom. It took about 6 weeks of planning, working and waiting, but it is finally done and it looks great! I love it! Well, anything would look better than the green countertops we had before! Everyone needs to come see it!

That is about all for now. We are super busy this month with birthdays and errands and B's party and baby showers and on and on and on. It will be a busy month for sure! Hope to see everyone soon! Love you all!

Life

2009-12-12T19:51:00.000-08:00

Why is life so hard? I feel like I am pulled in so many directions right now and can't figure out the right path. I am stuck. Really struggling trying to figure out which path is going to be the best. The hardest part is I know what is the best but taking that step is so hard...How do you know what to do and how do you do it? I don't want to have regrets in my life and in my choices but not sure which decision I would not regret.

What to do...what to do...what to do...

Bracken

2009-09-27T08:15:00.001-07:00

So cute. One of the pics from yesterday's shoot.

B is rollin!

2009-07-11T11:14:00.000-07:00

B rolled over for the first time! To see the video and read what happened, see his blog babywootton.blogspot.com. I am too lazy to type it all twice. : )

Summer Time!

2009-07-11T09:28:00.000-07:00

I love summer! I'm so glad it's here but I dont feel like I do much of anything these days, but I did have a fairly busy week. Tuesday we went to lunch with Jer who found a job! YAY. Wednesday we went and had lunch with Heidi and Mia and that was lots of fun! Thursday Savannah and I went and had some girl time. We went shopping and I got my hair cut (which I think I love, but I need to practice with it a bit) then Yesterday I took Savannah and Nathan to Cherry Hill with Kelly and the girls and that was so much fun! Today I am spending time at home with B since I didn't see him a whole lot the last two days and missed him like crazy!

It is so nice to be able to go out and do things when I'm not working! One of the great perks of teaching!

I have tons more pics of B so I'm going to post another slide show.

Memorial Day

2009-05-25T11:30:00.000-07:00

For Memorial Day, we went to Moab. It's the first time I have ever been there and it was fun. The weather was rainy but it kept it nice and cool. We went on a couple hikes and hung out around camp. B was really good on the drive (he slept all the way home - phew - and wasn't way too fusy on the way there). But Saturday he was so fussy all day. It was really hard and I was ornery due to lack of sleep. But overall we had a great time! Here are some pics.

Catching Up

2009-05-09T14:03:00.000-07:00

So I haven't posted much lately. REally there isn't much going on. Still home from work for two more weeks so I haven't done much but take care of B. He is getting so big. Already 12 pounds 4 ounces. He will be 8 weeks tomorrow!! Its going by so fast. He is still colicy and really fussy. I have a hard time taking him out because I hate the looks people give me when he cries...like its my fault? Yesterday in Shopko a lady had the nerve to ask, "whos the mom?" She said it rude when someone else was holding B when he was screaming. I felt like saying, "F!!! Off" but I smiled and said, "I am." But hopefully it wont last too much longer and he will grow out of it. He is sleeping a little better during the day and that helps and gives me a break.

Jer is working like crazy and not getting anything special for it, but a pay check and gets to keep his job. If they dont work their boss says they get fired. But he is gone about 14 hours a day and it really sucks that we never see him and when he does get home he showers eats and goes to bed.

Nothing else new. Just debating on how I feel about going back to work. Dont want to leave him and dont want to work, but at the same time I think it will be nice to get away a little and get away from the crying and constant soothing. It wears me out : )

Hope everyone is doing well and I hope all the moms have a great Mother's Day!!!

Doctor Appointment

2009-04-15T12:57:00.001-07:00

Need to vent.

So I took B to the doctor today because he has had screaming episodes the last two evenings. They lasted about 6 hours each night, but it was scream, nap, scream, nap, scream, nap, etc. Naps were about 20 minutes each and screaming 30 or more minutes. I about lost my sanity and it's so hard to see him cry and not be able to sooth him. Its the worst feeling in the world! Plus Jer hasn't been getting home until 9 so I am alone all day and all night with B. I love him but it is draining not being able to put him down a whole lot and not getting naps in because he usually doesn't sleep long enough for me to fall asleep and get a good nap. I end up waking up more tired. Anyway...

He is 11 lbs 1 oz. That is the 75th percentile. Big Boy!

She thinks he is colicy which is something he will just have to grow out of and the screaming fits are something we will just have to deal with while they are happening. She is having me put him on formula for a week to see if that helps because there may be something in my milk upsetting his belly. I am not happy about this and it makes me feel like a bad mom. I feel like I can't provide for him now. PLus I have to pump after each feeding to keep my supply up so it's just going to take twice as long and be harder now. I'm really upset about this.

She also told me to put him down and let him cry if I can't sooth him and I get frustrated. I know her reasonings behind this, but I dont think I can do that. I can't sit in the other room and listen to him scream knowing I'm not even trying to help calm him. I would just get more frustrated listening to that from the other room.

Arg.

This sucks.

I feel like shit.

Poor Bracken. Hopefully he grows out of it sooner rather than later. And hopefully these fits are only a few times a week and not a nightly episode because it is so draining on both of us. I just sit and cry with him for most the time. What a crappy day. I hope it helps him being on formula because I am really opposed to doing it. If it doesn't help change his behavior then it will be a waste and I will be even more upset.

BaBy BrAcKeN

2009-04-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

Hello to all! For everyone who keeps asking...things are going well! It is so freaking hard being a mom and I am completely overwhelmed most of the time, but I also love it. Everyone says it is hard, but you don't really understand how hard until it happens to you! And he is pretty fussy some days and just doesn't sleep well at nights, so that is really hard on me. I love seeing him grow (he is so big already) and all the little developments and changes in him. At his two week appointment he had grown almost a pound putting him at 8 lbs 11 ounces and 21 inches, which means he grew about 3 inches! That is crazy and I can tell he is even bigger since then. We take tons of pictures, so I am adding another slide show. I am slightly obsessive with taking pictures, I know, but he is so cute that I can't help it.

Bracken Pictures

2009-03-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

Bracken Shane Wootton

2009-03-18T13:45:00.000-07:00

Bracken Shane Wootton

March 15th, 2009

7 lbs 13 ounces

18 inches long

Welcome to our family, little one!!

So, I went into labor on Saturday night at 230. After an hour of contractions that weren't consistent but hurt like hell and were between 2-5 minutes apart I woke up Jer. We stayed home for a bit then went to the hospital at 530. They took me in and checked me. I was very thin but only dialated to a 1. They gave me my epidural very quickly, probably because I was screaming during the contractions! I didn't know it could hurt so bad! Then at 730 my doc came in and broke my water and started me on Pitocin. I dilated very quickly after that, but then I got really sick. I was shaking really bad and had a fever, was sweating, was nauseated, and so out of it. The babie's heart rate dropped so they stopped the pitocin and got me back under control. My blood pressure had dropped extremely low so they had to keep putting me on oxygen, but after that one time, it wasn't too low. Once we were feeling better they put the pitocin back on.

After another couple hours of being miserable and so sick I was finally dilated to a 10. So we started pushing and after 15 minutes, they made me stop while we waited another 15 minutes for my doc to get there and get dressed. After he was there I pushed for less than 5 minutes, probably only about 5 times and Bracken had arrived! I was in the pushing stage for only 35 minutes and I wasn't pushing for half of it, so that was better than I had hoped for!

Total, I was in labor for 12 hours and 15 minutes. It wasn't too bad considering what came out of me! I am doing well now, just very sore. Bracken is so adorable and loves to be held. He won't let us put him down - not even at night. So, we don't really sleep. This is going to be a problem.

Here are a bunch of pictures. I have a ton more, but I will do a slide show later to add them.

Jer is such a good daddy and has been helping out so much. He is really good and comforting him and it is so cute to see! Thanks hunny for all you do!

Thanks for everyone's support!! Love you all!

39 weeks and counting

2009-03-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

So I had my doctor appointment yesterday and....still nothing. Talk about feeling so dissapointed! I know you don't have to dilate to go into labor and I do want him to be ready, but it's really hard for me to want something so bad and know I have no control over it. I also feel like my body isn't doing what it's suppose to be doing. What if it means I won't dilate and have to have a c-section? I would be devastated. I want to have a vaginal birth and that would really bother me. It really makes me feel like I'm not capable of having a baby. I know it doesn't mean that but it scares me and makes me feel like shit.

On top of making me more worried about birth, I am so tired of restless legs at night, tired of 3-5 bathroom trips each night (I will get up and feed, but so annoying to get up to pee!), I can't get comfortable at night, I wake up with sore sore sore hips, I am so done with the clothes I have, I throw up in my mouth every day/night! Heartburn sucks and I get sick half the time when I eat. I also broke out in zits about two weeks ago and they won't go away. Luckily not on my face, but all aound my butt and front area and in my arm pits and some on my legs. It is so yucky. I feel fat everywhere and am retaining water. And can I say so emotional?

I know I'm making a baby and it's ok to have all these side effects and they aren't that bad and I am so thankful that nothing has been worse and the baby seems to be happy and healthy. I am so thankful so I feel bad complaining, but I am so DONE being pregnant! I cried the whole way home from my doctor appointment yesterday, but it helped me feel better!

My due date at the doctors office is tomorrow, the 15th, but at the hospital they have it as Thursday, the 19th. They won't change it because it isn't ten days different. So I still think I have a chance to go into labor because he really should be about ready.

Sorry for the whinny post...

Keep your fingers crossed for us and that I can have this baby safely! Our next appointment is next wednesday and I will be induced the next Wednesday night/Thursday morning (either way, its less than two weeks). They will start thinning my cervix Wed night, but I probably wont go into labor until Thursday morning.

Silly Story

2009-03-13T06:48:00.001-07:00

So yesterday, I was in the office at work and a mom with her little boy walked in and the boy was probably 5.

He looked at me and said, "Do you have a ball?" (referring to my belly).
I said, "Does it look like I have a ball (rubbing my belly)?"
Boy, "yeah, it does."
"Well it is actually a baby."
"Let me see."
"Well he is in my belly, so you can't see."
"I think you have a ball for me (with a smile on his face)."
"I wish I had a ball for you, but it is a baby."
He just looked at me, unsure.
I was walking out of the office and had to walk by him and he bent over and turned his head sideways trying to look up my shirt to see if he could see the "ball." It was the funniest thing! His mom just stared at me and another lady in the office was cracking up. I was trying not to laugh at him, until I left, then I got a good laugh out of it.

38 Weeks and counting...

2009-03-06T17:01:00.000-08:00

So I had a doctor appointment today. I have gained 32 pounds so far and two this week. I am measuring at 39 1/2 weeks, but not dialated at all. He said I feel thin, but I don't think he can tell me a percentage because I'm not dialated so he can't actually feel the thinkness. I really wish I was dialating, but nothing I can do about that. He said he is very surprised that I haven't dialated because people with this body type usually are dialated by now. Maybe I'm just a really good oven.

We set up a day to induce me - March 26th. I would go in the night of the 25th and they give me a pill or something to get me started and I sleep there. Then in the morning of the 26th they will give me pitocin or break my water if I need it, if the pill didn't do enough. So he will be here in 20 days, almost definitely. That is so far away though! I am so ready to start this journey and the closer I get, the more anxious I get and just want it to be here. I have been very patient this whole pregnancy, but the last week or so I have really wanted to get the show on the road! I could still go into labor at any time though, so keep your fingers crossed for me!

Last Shower

2009-02-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

So I had my last baby shower on Sunday. There turned out to be lots of people there and I got a ton of stuff. I was surprised at how many people came to support our new family because I'm not very close to many of them! What a sweet family. I am definitely ready for this baby now! I've got everything put away and put together and took back a few things I didn't need. Now we just need a baby! Here are some pictures from my last shower! We had such a great time and it was so nice to see everyone. Jeramie's family is so supportive and great!

I got two blankets like this that are homemade and so adorable!

Jer's parents and sisters got us this huge gift bag full of stuff! They spoiled us! And gave us about 250 diapers! So helpful!

We played Pictionary with baby words. No one wanted to get up and draw but everyone had fun - whether they admit it or not! LOL. It was fun to see the pictures they were drawing and trying to figure out what it was.

Jer's mom - Thanks for throwing my shower for me! And thanks to Megan - I don't know how I didn't get a picture her! Love you both!

I am working on parent conferences this week at work and I wanted to get through them for sure before he came, but I'll be done tomorrow, so that's not a problem. Now I am ready for him to come! I am 37 weeks, so considered full term and safe for the baby to come. My feet are swelling now since I'm back at work and on my feet all day. I get sock indents and my feet get red and fat. It's not that bad, but noticeable. My next doctor appointment is tomorrow. I will get checked again and get results back for the strep B test. Last week I wasn't dialated or effaced at all, so I am hoping that I am tomorrow. It seems like the closer it gets the more I am just ready to have him here! He moves so much and it is so weird because it moves my entire belly and he is so big that it looks funny. I love it, but it is uncomfortable after a few minutes and he pushes on my bladder and it feels like someone is stabbing me. Ouch. I'll update everyone tomorrow on my doctor appointment.

Another Shower

2009-02-17T10:44:00.001-08:00

So last week (I know, I am behind) Peruvian Park, the school I worked at the last four years, threw me a shower. I thought that was the nicest thing ever, seems how I don't even work there any more and almost all the teachers were there and brought gifts! I think that is so so so sweet of them! I love my new school and especially how close it is, but I really miss all the people over at Peruvian! I love you guys!! Thanks for the shower!! And I got the absolute cutest Hurley jacket and jeans I have ever seen but there isn't a picture of them! I will definitely post a picture of him wearing them when he grows into them though. So So cute! Here are a few pics of all the sweet people over there!

Friend/Family Shower

2009-02-08T10:22:00.000-08:00

I had a really fun shower on Saturday that my aunts threw for me! First of all, THANKS SO MUCH to Kelly, Linda and Katrina for throwing me the shower. I know they put a lot of time into it! I really appreciate it! Lots of my friends and family came andI got so many great gifts! Thanks again to everyone!! That is so awesome for everyone to help us out and it really helps! Here are some of the pictures (I have about 60!)

Cute diaper cake made by my aunt LInda! I think it is so freaking adorable!!

We made play-doh babies. Snort was really proud of hers!

Here are the winners for silliest and best baby
Janelle made this portrait of me. haha. It is so funny!
Becky, Erin, Heidi, Snort

My sister & me
Tana & My mom

Kristen, Savannah & Ashley

Megan and Mary

I love this cute hat from Megan and Mary!

This is a cute diaper cake Shantel made for me! She is so talented!

This is a pillow case made by my grandma and she won first prize on it. When I opened the card (it was the cutest card by the way that played music) It said "I love you, Grandma Mattsson" and I started bawling! My aunts gave me these pillow cases and also some of my favorite raspberry jam that my grandma made. I miss her so much and she would have been so excited to be at the shower!

Work Shower

2009-02-08T10:11:00.000-08:00

On Friday, my team at work threw me a baby shower. I got lots of cute stuff and lots of diapers and wipes - thankfully! I also got some cute clothes and a bunch of other things! I feel better now that we have some clothes for him! Thanks Amy & Leslie for putting it all together for me and thanks to everyone at work for the gifts, love and support! I work with some of the greatest people I could ever ask to work with!

I was soooo exhausted! haha

Cute treats!

Weekend Fun!

2009-02-02T16:27:00.000-08:00

I have had a busy weekend! Friday I picked up my aunt Katrina from the airport and went to lunch with my aunt's and my 'cousin' Janelle. Then we had a surprise 50th birthday party for Jeramie's mom. She was really surprised and tons of people showed up, so that was really cool.

On Saturday I went to my friend Becky's baby shower. She got lots of good stuff and made me so excited for mine! Then We wen't to Janelle's birthday party that evening and hung out with everyone until midnight. It is quite a feat to stay up til midnight these days!

Becky, Me and Courtney at Bec's baby shower

Hanging with the family at Janelle's birthday party! This is all us girls in the family!

Then yesterday, I got a bunch done around here and we went to my cousin's friend's house to watch the superbowl. It was fun but I was so exhausted. What a busy weekend.

Seems like I have a ton to do this whole time I'm off track. I don't know how I would do it all if I was actually working! Thank goodness I'm off! I have two baby showers this week and can't wait! One on Friday at my school and one on Saturday at my aunts! I am so excited! I also have my next doctor appointment this week, lunch with a friend, need to finish our taxes, meet our potential baby sitter, tonz of errands and jobs to get done and want to spend some time with my aunt while she is here. Oh, and our birthing class starts on Saturday too! Phew...

Some Updates

2009-01-29T16:39:00.000-08:00

First, that poll just made me more confused about the name thing. ARG! haha.

Things are going so well around here for a change. I'm getting so excited for all my showers - thanks for everyone who is throwing me one and thanks for everyone who comes! I am getting so excited for this baby! I can't wait. I just want to get all the stuff I need so I feel prepared. Our baby class is on the 7th and 14th and I am so excited for that. I think I've had 12 Braxton Hicks contractions today! They are coming more often now, not that they mean anything though. At my last appointment, my doctor said he would bet his new house that I come 2-3 weeks early just because I am measuring big and will run out of room because of my body shape. I really hope I can make it til March 6th so I can finish my parent conferences and not have to worry about doing them over the phone while I'm off or having to do them in the evenings when I go back! That puts me at less than two weeks early though, so lets hope he bakes until then! I also put a new picture on the side of my blog. Don't think I've grown much the last few weeks.

I am off track for the next 3 weeks and am going to use the time to relax and hopefully get some baby stuff ready. I also want to finish reading all my baby books and a couple novels while I have time to read.

Jer is finally back at work (at least most the time) and making money again so that makes me feel better. He is such a sweetheart and things have been so good since I've been pregnant. We are like a whole different couple now and we are both so happy! He has also been sober for over 3 months now too! Go Jer!

I think we may have found a sitter that is just about 3 minutes from my house and she is licensed and has done it for 16 years. It will be about 420 dollars a month, and I think that is pretty good considering how close and being licensed. I've heard it is more than that, so I feel good about that. We get to meet her next week and we will decide for sure, but she was super nice on the phone.

Anyway, things feel really good for a change! Hope all is well with everyone! Love you all!

Baby Name Poll

2009-01-26T17:36:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone. People keep asking. The answer is no, we do not have a name picked out yet! I wish we did because it's stressful but it is such a hard decision. We can't decide on a first name, let alone a middle name to go with any of our first name options! We are struggling. I am adding a poll with the top names, as of now, although this list changes frequently. I want to see what other people think...even though it doesn't really matter what you think (no offense) I am curious to see others' thoughts. So, take the poll!!

3D Ultrasound

2009-01-12T18:32:00.000-08:00

So we had our 3D Ultrasound today! It was such a fun experience! He weighs 4 poiunds 2 ounces and has some very chubby cheeks. We got a better "boy" picture, which makes me feel much better because you can't really tell in the other one and I didn't want him to come out a girl after we buy everything in blue! It was so fun to see him, expecially the 3-D part and we got a DVD too.

The bad part is that he had his hands up by his face and one of his feet. Awkward, poor guy. Also, he had his face smashed into the placenta for the first half the time we were there and the imbilical cord was in front of his face, so the pictures aren't great, but they got a little better after she poked at him for a while. In the pictures the placenta is on the right. Yuk. Also, our scanner isn't working so I took a picture of the pictures, but flash and doesn't look great. So, they really aren't as good.

He was moving everywhere and she couldn't get him to hold still. She said he was 4 pounds 2 ounces and all my books say by the end of the week he should be 3 1/2 pounds, so I think he is on the big side. He also has pretty chubby cheeks! He was making all sorts of funny faces. He kept opening and closing his eyes and sticking out his tongue. Priceless!! So if anyone wants to see the DVD, you can come watch it, even though it probably isn't nearly as exciting for you as it is for me! : )

This is his heart beat and his heart up at the top

Cute baby with placenta on the right and his little hand on the left

She said this is his foot on the left but I can't see how. The cord is all down by his mouth.

You can see the cord good in this picture.

Cord in front of his face. Is that hair?? Or his head is bumpy.

Not a great picture. His nose looks funny. But still cute!

This is my favorite picture. It is the most clear and can see most his face.

Still curious about the head. Anyone know?

Just a 2D shot of the side of him.

His boy parts. She said, "geez, he has a torpedo." haha.

HaPPy NeW YeaR!!

2009-01-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

Happy 2009! I hope this year brings everyone health and happiness!

For me, 2008 was pretty much the worst year of my life, except for this baby, which is the biggest blessing and if it wasn't for him, I don't know how I would have made it! So, I am hoping 2009 will be so much better! My 2009 wishes are for baby and me to be healthy after he arrives, for him to be a happy baby, for Jer and I to continue to be so happy together - things have been better than they ever have between us before.

My new year's resolution (which I NEVER make resolutions) is to stop saying the F-word. I can't help it, I have gotten into this horrible pattern of just saying it all the time. When I drop something on the floor or if I can't sleep or ANYTHING, even if it's not really bad. The problem is I don't even think about it until after I say it, it's become so natural. So I'm going to start a swear jar and put all the money I collect into the babies bank account when he is born. A dollar an F word.

Finally, we DESPERATELY need some help with a baby name. We have brainstormed and discussed the issue for hours and hours. We have looked online for hours and both of us have read 2 baby name books and nothing is really sticking. Anyone have any ideas you want to share?? It's looking like our newest possibility is Jaxon. Please help!! : )

MeRrY ChRiStMaS

2008-12-27T08:14:00.000-08:00

Christmas has always been one of my favorite times of the year. I love getting and giving gifts and I love seeing all my family and everyone is always so happy and joyful. This Christmas just wasn't the same. Both of our dads were out plowing and I didn't see my mom or that part of my family because we did our Christmas early and I missed my grandma and my grandpa saw a picture of my grandma and fell apart. Then he just wanted to go back the the nursing home and be alone. That ruined my whole day seeing him like that. So, needless to say, this Christmas wasn't that great.

We woke up to some snow and opened our gifts at home.

Jer's card to me. Look at the bottom of the Y. He is silly.

Oh...I got a love note! How sweet! I look skinny in this picture! LOL

Jer getting some parts for his 4-wheeler!

Jer got the baby a cute bib that says "I love mommy"
Then we went to Jer's moms for breakfast and gifts. We got snowed in there with the crazy wind and all the snow, but Jer dug us out and the weather wasn't nearly as bad as we headed out east.

This is after Jer dug our car out!

Then we went to my aunt Lindas and I just didn't enjoy myself like I usually do without my grandma and grandpa there. It was really hard.

My dad NEVER wraps gifts, bu the started this year. Looks like he needs some practice! haha

Here is a funny video playing the little piano they got Dal for Christmas. She is actually pretty good! Who knew she could play!

Then we went to Jer's grandmas house, then to my dad's to see him since we didnt see him earlier. Then we went home and got Jer's truck then went out to his cousins house. It was such a long day and I was getting really ornery by the end. Hopefully next Christmas will be better when we have the baby.

Here are some pictures of all the snow we got!

Mom's Christmas

2008-12-27T08:00:00.000-08:00

I never posted about mymom's christmas. We celebrated Christmas with her last Sunday. We went over there and exchanged gifts with her and Savannah and Nathan. It was fun.

These are the cutest shoes ever for Baby Wootton!

Baby Videos

2008-12-18T17:21:00.000-08:00

So, I got a couple more baby videos. They aren't great, but I can never catch him when he is really wild. The first one just has a cute part right at the beginning. You can see his foot or arm go across my belly. The rest of the video is nothing, I just can't edit them on this computer.

This video has lots of "action." But it isn't really strong. It is the best I have got so far though.

Grandpa's Tree

2008-12-18T17:16:00.000-08:00

My family decided to move my grandpa into a home about a month ago. A bunch of us went over there to put up a little tree in his room to make it more festive for him. Here are a few pictures. All the pictures of the tree were really blurry, but it was cute. Linda did such a good job on the lights - lol - Lets just say she tried. Kelly had to go fix them for her. haha. It was just a small tree, but made the room much more festive.

Love My Friends!

2008-12-09T10:00:00.000-08:00

I went out with my friends Becky and Courtney tonight. We went to Olive Garden - gotta love their soup salad and breadsticks! It is so much fun to hang out and catch up with them. It is so hard to get all 3 of our schedules free so we can hang. Here are some pictures we took. We are so cute : ) Becky is about 3 weeks further along then I am, so we took a belly picture. Cute girls...haha. Love you both!!

Finished Nursery

2008-12-08T18:10:00.001-08:00

Here are some pics of the completed nursery. The only thing we have left furniture wise is our rocking chair, which I ordered but they said up to 8 weeks for it to come in. It's a good thing I ordered it now, geez! It really looks better in person so everyone has to come see it!! I also want to put his name on the wall by the curtains, but we have to figure out a name first!!

I put hsi fabric samples in frames and hung them. I think it is so cute!!!

This is where the chair will go one day.

This is a cute clock I found that actually matches pretty well.

Family Pictures

2008-12-03T17:23:00.003-08:00

So last weekend we got some new family pictures taken with my mom, brother and sister. They are cute. Thought I'd share them. I love the shirt I was wearing. It says "baby makes the belly go round." haha.

My favorite picture : )

X - Mas Tree

2008-12-03T07:30:00.000-08:00

I put up my Christmas tree on Sunday. It is cute. Here is a picture. I also took a picture of this cute ornament that Megan gave us!

Ornament from Megan

I bought these cute ornaments. It doesn't make it not true if I buy them...right?

Happy Thanksgiving!!

2008-11-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

Every year on Thanksgiving and Christmas we have 4 families to visit. This Thanksgiving, we went to Jer's aunts house in Salt Lake to My aunts house by the U to Jer's mom's house in Riverton and then to my grandma's house in Murray! We were all over the valley but it is so nice to see all of our family. We had a great day!

I am so thankful for Jeramie and my family, for this baby (still no names) and being able to start a family. I am also thankful for having so many great friends in my life. I love you all!!

I had Jer try to record the baby kicking. Of course we can take 50 videos and he doesn't kick hard. But we got a pretty good recording here. There is a kick right at the first and right at the very end. So precious!! I'm still trying to get a better video, but I never have my camera when he is kicking and if I get up and move he stops.

Linda after our delicious meal!

Caleb's girlfriend, Tammy, Caleb's baby, my mom and me

Jer and me

Me and My brother Nathan

Me and my long lost cousins Caleb & Hayden

Me and Caleb

Hayden, his pink blanket, and me

Me and my cute sister.

Jer practicing for daddyhood with Calebs adorable baby!!

Jer with his mom and sister

Me with Mary and Megan

Payton and Linda

Dal and Kelly

Jer and Me

Kelly and Katrina

Janelle and Cade

Katrina, Me and Jer

Dal and Jer. I love this pic!

Nursery

2008-11-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

So I have been working hard on the nursery this week. My mom came over and helped me do some of the painting and Jer helped alot with the things I can't do (like hang chair rail and caulk and tape the stripes). I finally got my dots put up yesterday and it is so cute!! Now I need to work on putting together his furniture so I can finish decorating the room! I hope to do that this weekend since it is a long weekend!

Here is the room before we started painting.

We painted the blue walls then started on the stripes.

Then we painted the brown under the blue. This is what the other 3 walls look like.

Then we finished the strips (it took lots of layers of tape!

Close up of the cute stripes!!

Then we painted the brown under the strips Jer cut out these dots and I painted and hung them up. These are my favorite part!

Finished dot wall with the chair rail! Looks SOOOO good! We are so talented. haha.

Everyone needs to come see it in person when it is finished though, because it looks so much better in person then it does in the pictures! And I think it will look so good with the bedding we got him. It matches perfectly!!

Updates on My Life

2008-11-16T11:52:00.001-08:00

So my life has been so busy and hectic. I thought I would do a quick update on everything.

Work - I am back at work and feel good being back. My kids are really starting to grow on me and we are having a lot of fun learning!

School - 3 more weeks until I am done done done, with this class, with this endorsement, with school...period! Enough said.

Jeramie - Thanks for everyone who has asked about Jeramie and his surgery. He is doing well and is probably going back to work tomorrow. He has his check up appointment on Tuesday so we will see how the doctor thinks he is doing then. His eye looks almost completely normal again. It has been very nice having him home this week and seeing him so much!

Baby - I have been feeling the baby so much! I love it! I think he is doing well and is so happy in there. I think he was awake the entire day yesterday because I would feel him for about a half hour then an hour later I would feel him again. It went on like that all day! It was so amazing! I have my next doctor appointment tomorrow and we get some blood results back that are suppose to help see if he has Down Syndrome. I want to see what the results are!

Family - Um...My family is a wreck and it sucks! We just moved my grandpa into a home and he is NOT thrilled to be there. It is so hard and stressful on everyone, but I think we agree it is what is best. My mom and John are going through a divorce and I hate to see them so unhappy. My aunt Kelly is having surgery on her neck (two bad disks...yikes!) tomorrow and I have been thinking a lot about her. So everything has been crazy!!

Jeramie News

2008-11-07T12:20:00.001-08:00

So some of you know and some of you don't, so I thought I would share the most recent news with Jeramie.

Well, he has a broken bone in his face, right under his eye. Ouch. He got punched a couple weeks ago (yes, they were drunk) while at a friend's house. It was hell for me and I was pissed at him for getting that drunk (and lots of other stuff that was going on). His eye was completely swollen shut and disgusting! After the swelling went down a little you could see his entire eye filled with dark red blood. It was so yucky. So we took him to the ER at this point and they did a CT scan and found he has a broken bone under his eye and he has some tissues sagging down into his sinus cavity and there is air in there. So he is getting surgery to get a plastic piece put in to hold up his eye and all that saggy tissue.

His surgery is on Monday and he will have to take a week off for recovery, but the doc said it's a pretty easy surgery. He will have double vision and swelling for a month or two but then it should heal. Figures his surgery is on my first day back on track, at work. So he takes a week off soon as I go back to work.

Anyway, it has been two weeks full of doctor appointments and craziness. But everything will get taken care of soon and hopefully our lives will start to go back to normal.

Bedrooms

2008-11-04T07:16:00.000-08:00

So I thought I'd post a picture of my new bedding. It is NOT the same color as it looks online but it still looks really good. I like it more now that I'm getting use to it.

I bought this cute frame for the baby's first picture. It came with lots of different sayings you could put at the bottom. We chose "love at first sight."

I also bought the nursery bedding for baby "no name yet". Here is the online picture. I'll post a picture when I get it all put together and on the crib that hasn't come in yet. It's cute. I'm going to do the paint differently and the valance is different and my crib and furniture is black. I thought it would look really good with black until it came. Now I'm not so sure. I hope it looks ok. His room is also way smaller than this room!

I drew up a sketch of how I want to paint the nursery. Keep in mind I am NO artist! haha and the colors don't look as good on here. I think it will be so cute! And I think we are leaning toward the name Bracken, so that's what I used for the name in the pic. The bottom half of the walls will be dark brown. Then there will be the one polka dot wall that is white and the yellow stripes are more of a tan color. Then I will put different sizes of blue and brown dots over the wall. Then the upper part of the rest of the walls will be a light blue.

Twilight Quiz

2008-10-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

Take the Quiz and Share Your Results!

You are observant, diplomatic and often aim to please. You are unaware of your
attractiveness and despite being uncomfortable with any form of attention, people enjoy your company. You can be impatient, stubborn and headstrong, but you are true to your word and mature for your age, often taking care of your family and enjoying a good book over chatting with girlfriends on the phone.

Yay...I love Bella...see Linda. Now when you say you don't like her, you will be taking a personal stab at me! haha. JK!

ITS A BOY!!!

2008-10-21T08:13:00.000-07:00

Well, we went to our ultrasound yesterday and found out that "it" is a "he." I feel good having a proper pronoun to call him. Here are all the details!

First, Jer came home from work early to go with me. He brought me these roses - so gorgeous!! It was so sweet to do that for our ultrasound!

Then we went to our appointment and I had my 8 ounces of water an hour before plus about 12 more ounces. I was thirsty. By the time we got there I needed to pee so bad. The lady at the desk said the ultrasound lady is running about 20 minutes behind and that I couldn't pee. That sucked. We finally went back and she started! How exciting to see our baby on that little screen!!

She saw and measured the brain and looked at the kidneys and bladder and measured the arm to make sure they were long enough and she said they were actually really long. She looked at more things and measured things and then she came to the goodies. She said, "well its a boy, if you deliver and they try to give you a girl, don't take it, because this is definitely a boy!" At least she sounded confident! Jer was so excited and I started crying. It was just so emotional to see our baby up there on the screen.

Then she got a sideways shot of the whole body and you could see the arms moving all around and I started giggling. Jer was like, "what's so funny?" I said I didn't know but just kept on giggling. I kept apologizing to the lady because it shook the whole screen when I laughed and that just made it funnier. Really nothing was that funny but I was so emotional that is just how I reacted. The lady finally stopped and waited for me...probably slightly annoyed, but I couldn't help it! She said he weighs 10 ounces and about the length of a hot dog bun (is that really the best thing she could relate my baby to?) According to size, my new due date is March 15th, but they won't change it at the hospital unless it is at least 10 days off so we are keeping the 19th, but its really the 15th.

Then she printed our pics and we went next door to our other doctor appointment and I walked up to the counter and said I have a check up appointment, but can I pee in the cup NOW???because I can't hold it anymore (at this point I had been holding it for over an hour!). The doctor saw us and it was just a normal doctor appointment. He looked at all the ultrasound pictures and I got a flu shot and some blood taken. Both on my left arm so it was funny when we left I had two bandaids on my arm. I looked like a druggie.

Here are the pics she gave us. Its only 4 and the "boy" one isn't good at all. It was better when she showed us but I probably giggled before she took it and now you can't even tell by this picture. My doctor couldn't tell either. Owell though. My doctor got tons of pictures and we got a measely 4. Kind of sucks. But they are super cute!

Then we went to dinner and did some shopping. We bought our baby a build a bear. That was fun and we put all our love in it. It was really cute. Jer dressed him, it was so cute. Then we did some shopping for some more maternity clothes and I got a few pair of pants and a shirt. I also got a band to wear on your back cuz my back has been KILLING ME! We went and looked at a bunch more cribs and rocking chairs. Then came home.

Such a great evening! Jer and I were giddy all night!

To answer everyone's question: No, no names picked out yet but I will be happy to take some suggestions. We are looking for something very unique not too popular but fits us. I thank Janelle for offering "blanket, Jeramie Jr., and Lane II" but I would like some more help! LOL

Grandpa's Birthday!

2008-10-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my Grandpa's 86th birthday! We all go together and had dinner, cake & ice cream & he opened his presents. It was fun seeing everyone, but it is hard having family get togethers without my grandma there! It's just not the same. Here are some pictures that we took.

Payton and Katrina

Jeramie

Me being very lazy after we ate!

Grandpa blowing out his candles

Jeramie posing for the camera. He hates taking pictures usually so I was surprised that he actually took so many pictures! YAY!

Payton - I LOVE this picture. She looks like a little model!

Grandpa and me!

Linda, Cade and Nell

Dal, Grandpa, Kelly. Grandpa is opening his gifts

Payton and me

Nell when she wasn't feeling very well.

Dal, Kelly, Linda, Payton, Cade & me

Me and Dal and her pig nose

Me and Jer - he is grabbing the baby : )

Wow I look pregnant from this angle! Me, Katrina & Dal

Another Tag!!

2008-10-10T14:37:00.000-07:00

The rules are:Link to the person that tagged you, and post the rules on your blog.

Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.

Tag 7 random people at the end of your blog.

Let each person know that they’ve been tagged

by leaving a comment on their blog.

1. I am newly addicted to The Biggest Loser! And a dozen other reality shows...hehe.

2. My favorite subject to teach and to learn is math.

3. When I'm at home, I always eat with small forks (they are a little smaller than the normal small fork, but I love them).

4. Not surprising, but I am truly addicted to ice cream. I don't even care about the quality, as long as it is frozen!

5. I gag at the thought of drinking milk. blah!

6. I am currently eating 6-7 times a day (I'm blaming it on the baby!)

7. I have always wanted to be thinner and have bigger boobs! I know I'm thin but still have things that really bother me about my body. I need to just learn to love myself (especially now that I'm getting bigger - but can I say...I LOVE the boobs!)

I tag Becky, Snort, Nicole, Jenny, Janelle, Megan, Tana

Husband Tag

2008-10-10T14:23:00.000-07:00

So I have been tagged twice and feel obligated to do them when I am tagged.

Husband Tag - A great chance to get to know Jeramie

1. Where did you meet?
Um...a bar...Club Axis.
2. How long did you date before you were married?
1 1/2 years.
3. How long have you been married?
We just celebrated 4 years - and it seems like a lifetime! haha.
4. What does he do that surprises you?
Once in a while he will have dinner ready or be cooking when I get home. Not much. He use to be very cutsy like this but has stopped. So sad.
5. What's your favorite feature about him?
His tan skin (as long as you don't see his butt, he is always tan! and don't be looking at his butt!)
6. What's your favorite quality about him?
His willingness to listen to me complain all the time and being so helpful with all of "our" projects around the house.
7. Does he have a nickname for you? What is it?
Babe
8. What's his favorite color?
I honestly don't know. Not one of our common topics of conversation. Probably blue??
9. What's his favorite food?
I definitely know what he doesn't like, but not sure what his favorite food is. Geez I feel like a jerk not knowing a lot of these questions.
10.What's his favorite sport?
He doesn't get into sports much - that should have been what I put for my favorite thing about him. He will watch football sometimes if his friends invite him, so probably foot ball.
11.Who said "I love you" first?
I did, over text, I know LAME.
12.When and where was your first kiss?
Our first date, the day after we met, outside of the car when I was dropping him off.
13.What are your favorite things to do as a couple?
We don't like to do much as a couple, that is why we fight so much! So I would have to say watch TV.
14.Do you have kids? How many?
One in the oven!
15.What's a hidden talent that he has?
He is a great cook!!
16.How old is he?
28
17.What's his favorite type of music?
Rock & Roll but listens to lots of different things.
18.What do you admire most about him?
He is a hard worker!
19.What's his favorite past time?
Once again, no idea. I suck.
20.Do you think he's going to read this?
Even better, I KNOW he wont! He has never looked at my blog and probably never will. I wish he did though.

I tag Becky, Snort, Ashlie (payback...haha).

I believe!!

2008-10-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

So I got in my car this morning for my two-minute drive to work. As I was getting in, I was listening to 97.1. They have a dream analysis lady call in every week or so and people can call in and share their dreams. Then she tells them what they mean. I thought…I should call in and share my dream about my grandma (even though I never would). And no lie, the first caller called in and said that her grandpa recently passed and she had a dream that he came back and said he was spending time with them and with her grandma everyday and he will help them get through this, but everything is ok.

I was thinking, “Whoa!” That is so much like the dream that I had even though different things happened in our dreams, same basic concept (I posted a description of my dream a few days ago if you have no idea what I'm talking about). The dream lady said that it needs no interpretation and that it was her grandfather coming to visit her through her dream. When we sleep our wavelengths are just right for this to actually happen!

Keep in mind this is what came on in my two minutes of driving. Of course I sat and listened to it in my car when I got here, but I feel like I was meant to hear it – what is the chances of that being on in my short car ride? It really makes me feel so good about my own dream. I definitely believe it was my grandma coming to talk to me. Makes me so happy!

VOTE!!

2008-10-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

I added a poll to my sidebar. Vote to share what you think we are having! Boy or Girl????

Such a Great Dream

2008-10-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

So, two nights ago, I had a really good dream. I was at Castle (my old work) and they had the biggest cafeteria. It was like being at a mall cafeteria. I saw my grandma (who just passed away) there and she was eating lunch with Kelly, Katrina and Linda. I remember seeing her and she was so beautiful. Her hair and make up were perfect and she looked so good. She had a glow to her, but she was human. I ran up to her and hugged her and asked her why she had to leave us. I told her how upset I was and that I missed her. She told me not to worry and that everything is great. She said that all souls have 1 million days to spend on this planet. They can spend it in as many bodies as they would like and her 1 million days were over, so she had to leave, but that we shouldn't be sad, that everything is ok.

I don't remember much more than that but I woke up so happy and relieved. I don't know if this was just my imagination or something much more, but I felt so good when I woke up and I just feel so much better about everything that happened. I still miss the hell out of her, but it just seems like things are a little calmer in me now. I always remember my dreams or at least parts of them and maybe she knew that and that's why she wanted to come visit me. I don't know..seems strange, but maybe.

Thought I'd share. Something I definitely want to remember!

Happy Birthday Gentry!!

2008-10-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today is my cousin Gentry's 31st birthday. He passed away a year and a half ago and we really miss him.

G - I hope you are having a good time up there doing anything and everything you want. Grandma came up to be with you...take care of her for us! I miss you and love you!

Gentry Jon Bauer
Gentry Jon Bauer "G" "True to the Ones I Love" We have lost a radiant light in our lives. Gentry Jon Bauer left behind an adoring group of family and friends on February 5, 2007. Gentry was born in Salt Lake City on Oct. 1, 1977 to Linda Mattsson Blake and Jon Bauer. He spent his childhood years playing basketball and soccer, spending time at his family's cabin in Torrey, Utah, and delighting his family with his exploits and practical jokes, mainly at the expense of his older brother Cade. He attended Skyline High School where he formed the band Hospital Food with his friends Chris, Luke and Steve. The band ultimately recorded two CD's and was signed with New School Records, which produced the CD "Medicate." Some of Gentry's favorite experiences were the band's tours through the western United States. Gentry was a gifted drummer and the great passion in his life was music, both listening and performing. Gentry had a very special relationship with his grandparents (The Two Big Gs). His experiences with them were among the most significant of his lifetime. Gentry loved to travel and loved experiencing the vibrance and energy of big cities. He spent many happy summer vacations at Lake Powell and Torrey. At the time of his death Gentry was the manager of The Pie in Midvale, Utah. Gentry's heart and soul will forever reside within the loving relationships he built during his life. We will miss him forever. Gentry leaves behind his parents Jon Bauer and Linda and Ed Blake; brothers Kincade (Janelle) Bauer, Chris (Jenny) Blake, and Adam Blake; grandparents Duane and Twila Mattsson, Thelma Bauer and Bob and Velma Blake; special aunts Kelly (Rick) Valleley and Katrina Raphaell and uncle Lane Mattsson; cousins Sim, Shanda, Payton and Dahlia; and the love of his life, Heather Bosen. Kiss, kiss, kiss, love, love, love, hug, hug, hug - I love you the most INFINITY. Mom Little did I know how deep you would run and the complexity and tenderness of your soul when I first looked into your eyes the day you were born. I wish I could have held your hand more often and been with you at the end of your journey, but be assured, Gentry, you will be with me and I with you forever and always. Save me a place - it will be the best seat in the house (the one by the drummer). I love you, Dad. G I have lost my brother and my best friend. I am so proud of all that you accomplished in your life and so thankful for all the laughs, smiles, jokes, and music I could share with you. A trip to NYC or Powell, our family dinners, and every holiday will never be the same. I cannot fathom a life without you and I will miss you so dearly. I love you G. Cade Goodnight my love, my snuggle bug, I'll find you in my dreams. I love you pumpkin. Heath G, I will miss our talks about great music and your ability to make me laugh. You are loved by many. Ed G, my love for you is timeless and true and I will miss you every minute of every day for as long as I live. Kelly Goodbye, my Gentry. We love you. Grandma and Grandpa

Girls Evening!

2008-09-26T06:48:00.000-07:00

So last night, I went and hung out with Becky and Courtney for a well needed girls evening. We went and ate at Olive Garden (endless pasta bowl is on!! yum yum). It was delicious and nice to catch up with them. Courtney just got engaged!! YAYA and Bec is also preggers YAYA so we have so much going on in our lives that we needed to catch up on! It was a lot of fun.

Then we walked over to the mall and looked at the maternity store. I got my bra size measured and I am at a 34 D!!!! YAHOO. hahaha. I think it is one of the best parts of being pregnant. haha. I am excited about it! I also got 2 new pair of pants, a skirt and 3 shirts, oh and a bra. Can I just say...I love shopping.

Publish Post

My Birthday Party!

2008-09-23T07:49:00.000-07:00

So, even though I didn't have the greatest bday this year, I decided to have a family bday party at my house. It is the first time we have had a lot of people over at our house, so it was fun! We had a ton of people show up (I think around 25 people)! I loved visiting with everyone! Thanks for coming!

Here are some cute pics...and by the way, It did take me 3 blows to get all the candles out. I suck. I'm getting too old. haha.

Grandma's Obituary

2008-09-16T14:06:00.001-07:00

Twila G. Mattsson
Twila G. Mattsson 1929 ~ 2008 Our beloved wife, mother, grandmother, sister, aunt and best friend died on September 13, 2008 at St. Mark's Hospital due to complications from a sudden illness.Twila Gifford Mattsson was born on January 9, 1929 to Dewey and Pernellie Gifford in Salina, Utah at her grandmother's house. Twila grew up in Fruita, Utah on a pioneering homestead in what is now Capital Reef National Park. Her childhood home is known as the Historic Gifford Homestead, which just celebrated its 100-year centennial where she was featured and honored as one of the children who grew up in the home. She climbed the red rock hills, picked fruit, played in the Fremont River, rode horses and went to grade school in the little one-room schoolhouse in Fruita. She lived with her grandmother in Salina while she attended high school. She graduated from North Sevier High School in 1946 and worked as a waitress at Mom's Café in Salina. She married her soul mate and best friend, Duane J. Mattsson, on November 13, 1949. They resided in Salina until 1959, when they moved to Kearns, Utah, where they raised their family. In 1977 Twila and Duane built a cabin in Torrey, Utah. Their home was an award-winning showpiece with hundreds of flowers and a large garden and orchard. They opened their cabin to their family and friends and spent many happy years at the cabin with their children and grandchildren. Twila and Duane loved to travel and would spend a few months each year in Kauai with their daughter Katrina. They traveled to Europe, Alaska, Russia, Scandinavia and Mexico. Twila was an accomplished seamstress and created beautiful embroidery and needlework. She was always cooking delicious meals for her family and had many signature dishes that were the cornerstone of all family get-togethers. Twila was warm, loving, smart, funny, and was the heart of our family. She was generous with her time, love and wisdom. She was devoted to and loved being surrounded by her family. Her beautiful heart touched everyone she met. We cannot imagine our lives without her. She is survived by her husband of 59 years, Duane Mattsson; daughters Linda (Ed) Blake, Katrina "Christy" Raphaell, Kelly (Rick) Valleley, and son, Lane Mattsson. She is also survived by her loving and devoted grandchildren Kincade (Janelle) Bauer, Simran Raphaell, Shanda (Jeramie) Wootton, Payton Valleley and Dahlia Valleley and her brothers Fay (Dessma) Gifford and Dale (Carolyn) Gifford, sister-in-law and dear friend Jean Gifford; numerous nieces and nephews. Predeceased by her parents, brother Lloyd Gifford and grandson Gentry Bauer. Services will be held on Thursday, September 18, 2008 at 1 p.m. at Garner Funeral Home, 1001 East 11th Avenue, Salt Lake City. A viewing will be held from 11:30 to 1 before the services.

In dedication to my grandma

2008-09-14T09:50:00.001-07:00

Last night, my grandmother died. And she wasn't just my grandmother...she was one of my close friends, like a mother to me. I talked to her about anything and everything and I could always turn to her for advise when I was having a rough time in life. She was the kindest person who ever walked the face of this earth and someone with such a great spirit who helped anyone and everyone in anyway possible.

Everyone who met her loved her. All my friends who knew her admired her and always told me how lucky I was to have a grandmother like her. And lucky I was. I am so lucky that I had her in my life. I am truely blessed that I had her in my life for as long as I did! When I was 17 and was having problems at home, I moved in with her and my grandfather and they told me they would help me and they did! I lived there for 4 1/2 years. They gave me a loan to get a new car, she cooked me dinner often, took me to the doctor when I was sick, helped me get through college, let me life an adult life but also gave me rules and helped me choose a good path in life. She was such a great role model for me and if I am half the woman she was then I will consider myself a fantastic person and a mom when the time comes.

She taught me so much about the value of family. She was the center of our family and the center of our lives. I saw her or talked to her at least once a week and loved every second of it. I would often go to their house just to visit and hear grandpa's stories. I loved being with them and am going to miss her so much. I am going to be a mess without her. I am especially sad that she won't be here to meet my baby. She was so so so excited to be a great-grandmother. Everytime I saw her that is all we talked about and she kept telling me how excited she is...now that wont happen. I always considered her a great grandmother, but now my children won't meet her and I am truely saddened that they wont have her in their lives.

It wasn't her time. She was absolutely fine on Wednesday. A strong woman who was in great shape. She got sick on Thursday and went to the emergency room. She spent Thursday night to Saturday night in the hospital. They went in to do surgery in her abdomen after numerous tests to see what they could do. There was nothing they could do. All but 3 feet of her intestines were dead. She couldn't live like that and even if she did make it through the surgery, she would have a miserable life. We didn't want this for her and we know she wouldn't want it either.

The hardest part of the whole thing was seeing my grandpa with her. He is not in as good of health as she was and he was so sad. I dont think he can make it without her. I dont think he wants to and I cant bare to think of losing both of them right now.

I just can't help but think it wasn't her time. She was fine on Wednesday and was such a strong lady! Even at 79 she was going to lunch and shopping and doing everything other people do. She was so healthy and so happy. She wasn't ready to leave and we weren't ready to have her leave!!!

Grandma - I love you so much and always will. I promise you that my kids will know you and will know what a great great-grandmother you would have been. They will know what a great person you ALWAYS were and how you were so willing to help anyone in anyway possible. I will miss you so much and I am truely not ready to lose you. It was such a surprise and our family can't take losing any more of us. Two in two years is too much! We will take good care of grandpa for you and look down over us and keep guiding us. I want you to visit often and I want to feel you around. This is the toughest time I have ever had and the strong person I always know I can turn to isn't there. Thank you for everything and thank you for making me a better person. I LOVE YOU!! You tell whoever is in charge up there that our family has had enough and to let us be happy and not loose anyone else!

What a Horrible FUCKING Weekend!!!

2008-09-14T09:27:00.000-07:00

When things start to go bad it seems EVERYTHING goes bad. I have officially had the worst weekend of my entire life!

This weekend my grandmother died. I feel like I have lost a piece of myself. I will write a dedication to her when I finish here.

Although that was by far the worst part of my weekend, my nephew also was in the hospital with complications on his tonsil removal.

Jeramie's dad is in the hospital and has liver damage and we dont know what is going on with him and his health right now. He is in pretty bad shape and I seriously think he is losing his mind. I dont know if it is the medication he is on or what, but he is not himself right now.

They say things happen in threes and maybe my 3 was having 3 loved ones in the hospital yesterday but there was also a 4th horrible thing...but I'm not comfortable sharing it. It was not the worst thing but definitiely just threw me through another hoop this weekend.

Why does life fall apart all at once???

Getting a Belly!

2008-09-09T17:58:00.001-07:00

So, I think I am officially getting a belly! I am starting to get some stares and people looking at my belly...some who know I'm preg and some who don't. I often can't do up the button on my pants! I think it is funny and so cute!! I love it!! I want to be a little bigger though so people know I'm actually pregnant and I don't just have a beer belly. : ) I wore a skirt today and a pretty tight shirt and I thought it was cute seeing my belly so I had Jer take a picture and thought I would share it! I can't wait to be a mom and love that I can see that my baby is growing in me! What a wonderful feeling!! My next appointment is in 9 days!!

Labor Day!!

2008-09-03T10:00:00.001-07:00

For Labor Day this year, we went on a fun camping trip with Linda & Ed, Chris & Jenny with cute Bailey, Adam & Erin and us. It was so much fun! We had to sleep in a tent and nights were really windy and cold, but it was a lot of fun. The weather was nice besides the nights (I didn't get any sleep this weekend). I didn't take any pictures but I stole all of Lindas (and her captions - thanks Linda!!). It is amazing how much fun we have together!! I love my family!!

Jer & me...what a great view behind us!!

Bailey with her parents

Bailey with her gramps and grandmaWhy do we like her so much?
Girls around the campfire Cade and Chris - brothers in love!
Cade and Shanda
All of us at the Goosenecks
Shanda and Jeramie...I don't know why he wanted us to do this pose??? Weird Jeramie. haha
Jenny, Chris and Bailey - look at Bailey's hair!
Boys around the campfire.
This is a huge fire that the boys built - Of course...no surprise.
This is our camp spot. Ed & Jeramie put up a little roof so we wouldn't get wet! I don't even know what to say about this.
Jeramie riding his hog
Bailey sitting on the steps of the Fruita house (in Capital Reef).
Checking out the view
I think these guys are partied out Cade & Janelle's dogs in their turtlenecks
Adam putting out the fire
Hahahahaha! This picture is so funny! He is putting his head through the doggie doorJanelle and Linda at the Fruita house.
Bailey and Gramps in their hats Shanda, Jenny and Bailey - next year there will be another baby in the photo!
Boys standing in the rain
Once again, what do I say?
Erin and Shanda
Shanda and Cade at the Fruita house This is the Gifford house in Fruita where my great grandparents lived and my grandma grew up
Cade and Nell taking a photo of themselves. They didn't want anyone else to do it!
Shanda and Linda
How many boys does it take to light a barbeque? All of them!
Bailey with her chair Cade and Vixen in his new hammock
Ed made himself this sandwich! Um...HUNGRY??
Jeramie chillin' in the hammock
Nell had to empty the tanks. Hahahaha! She showed that poop who's boss!

I'm Going To Be A MOM...Tear...

2008-08-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

So I was just updating my baby blog and getting ready to update this blog...I know I haven't done much lately but I have been SOOO busy at work. I have been working about 12 hours a day and only getting paid for 8 but that is my life as a teacher. More on that later, anyway, I was signing my baby blog and I put "love you, Mom" and I started getting tears in my eyes. I am actually going to be a mom!! I just realized I don't really know how to be a mom. I've heard so many people say it comes naturally and maybe it will, but what if I don't know what I'm doing? What if I don't know how to be a good mom?? But most of all...I'm going to be a mom! A MOM! That sounds so weird to me.

Enough of that. I had my first baby doctor appointment yesterday. We got a lot of information, I got a lot of blood taken (and I didn't pass out! Phew!) and we got to hear the babies heartbeat!! It was so precious. I got tears in my eyes then too (ok...I'm such a baby). It was so cute to hear though and really made me feel a thousand times better knowing that the baby is in there and alive and healthy. It was beating at 175 beats per minute. The doc said babies are between 120-160 but for the first appointment they are sometimes a little higher. He also said the heart beat was really strong for me only being 10 weeks.

He gave me a lot of information about doctor visits and things that will happen during my pregnancy. He calmed my fear of not getting enough protein and said to just eat how I normally do and the baby will be fine. The baby will take everything it needs and won't suffer...it will just be me who might start feeling it, but much better me than the baby! I am relived the baby knows to take all it needs! The doc said I am due March 19th and am right on schedule with my body and "insides." He said since I am small I will probably gain between 22-27 pounds but prob closer to 22. He also thinks I will deliver early because I am small and the baby will have no where to go. Maybe about 10 days early. The baby will likely be 6.5 pounds or smaller because he said I am too small to deliver a bigger baby and my body won't be able to stretch and grow enough to hold that big of a baby (lets hope for no 10 pounders because Jer was about 10!)

I can have as many ultrasounds as I would like, but my insurance will only pay for one, so I don't know if I will have many. My first one will be at 18 weeks to check the brain and lungs and internal organs...also the gender. He said I can do the gender at 16 weeks but could just wait until 18 weeks when he checks everything else. So I will proably wait. I hate waiting!

For my health...I have been feeling ok. Some days really good some really bad. I had the worst headache I have had in years this week and took some Tylonal which I feel really guilty about! Pretty much the same as before. I am always sick in the mornings and at night. I dont sleep well usually but have a huge appetite. Although I am miserable a lot, I am really trying to enjoy every minute of being pregnant and taking in all the joys of knowing there is a baby growing inside of there. Some of my pants are starting to get a little tight! and when I eat I get really bloated and I really look pregnant. haha!!

Sorry for the novel!! Miss everyone...feel like I haven't seen/talked to many of you since I started working!

Jeramie & Me

2008-08-15T12:36:00.000-07:00

Fun Questions
•What is his name? Jeramie David Wootton
•How long have you been together? 5 years 8 months
•How long did you date? 1 year 6 months
•How old is he? 27 but 28 next week
•Who said I love you first? I don't remember but it was over text. haha. I think it was him
•Who is taller? Him...Isn't that the way it is suppose to be
•Who sings better? Um...neither??
•Who is smarter? Well Duh...
•Whose temper is worse? His for sure. He gets angry over nothing, especially when driving.
•Who does the laundry? We usually do our own, but I help him with his a lot.
•Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? He does. I wish I did.
•Who pays the bills? Me or they wouldn't get paid.
•Who mows the lawn? He does 100% of the time and is always on top of it. Thanks hun!
•Who does the dishes? We both do depending on who cooks.
•Who cooks dinner? Both do but usually him. I only cook boxed stuff he can actually cook : )
•Who drives when you are together? He does almost always, which is good because otherwise he just tells me how to drive.
•Who is more stubborn? Equally but both equally VERY stubborn!!
•Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Hum. Prob usually him. I am never wrong. haha jk.
•Who kissed who first? I kissed him, but he will swear he kissed me, but refer to the last questions.
•Who proposed? He did. I would never do that. It was cute with lots of flowers in our apartment.
•Who is more sensitive? Me by a long shot!
•Who has more friends? Probably him. But I am closer to my friends, but he is much more sociable.
Who wears the pants in the family? I do.

Breaking Dawn

2008-08-06T11:05:00.000-07:00

To all those Twilight Series fans didn't you LOVE Breaking Dawn? I love love loved it! I got it Fri night and read for about an hour, then started reading sat at 2 and finished it Sunday about 10, reading on and off that whole time, besides my precious sleep time. haha. It is such a fast read. I thought it was really good and I love that I predicted almost everything that happened. I feel like I could have written the story line for her. That made it fun to read. I kept thinking..."I knew it, I knew it" haha. I won't mention anything specific for those of you who haven't had time to read it, but it was awesome and worth the read! I still think I liked the 3rd book, Eclipse the best though. What do you guys think about it?

Cherry Hill

2008-08-05T16:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to Cherry Hill with my Aunt Kelly, Payton, Dahlia, Savannah, and Nathan. We had a lot of fun. It is a great place to go swim. They have a lot of other things to do there too, but we just swam the whole day. I got a little burnt but so did my brother and sister. We all had a good time!!

Fun Times!

2008-07-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

We have had a busy couple of weeks. Two weekends ago we had a BBQ at my moms and Jer took a pic with my brother's baby, Michael. Isn't he adorable?? He is a little chunk but so cute and his hair is so long. This picture doesn't do it justice. Funny thin is he was born on March 19th, which is also my due date. Random.

We went and saw fireworks for the 24th at Liberty Park. We sit at the baseball diamond where they light them. It is as front row as you can get. It was an awesome show!!

Then we went shooting with some friends of ours and my cousin Cade. It is funny because he is good friends with our neighbors, who we are also becoming good friends with, so we do a lot more with him but because of mutual friends. It was funny going shooting with our friends and then my cousin is there.

Jer and me. Cade and Jer shooting.

My handsome hubby.

Steve & Kirstin's daughter - Kiah. She was trying to clean up because it was a disaster (does no one clean up after themselves anymore??), so she picked up a bag full of shot gun shells.

Janelle - She was using their window shade thing to keep cool. HAHA. It was funny. It was sooo hot!

This last weekend we went to my Uncle Bill's wedding. It was fun but I got so sick driving there. Motion sickness is my new least favorite thing. It was up about 20 minutes past the capital building and you had to go up a very windy road. It was fun seeing all my family though and being able to see people who live out of state.

Kim (new Aunt), Grandma, Uncle Bill

Meg & Tana Cute Pic!

Me, AnnMarie, Tana

Me, AnnMarie, Meg

Then went to a birthday party - Happy Birthday Kirsten!

On Sunday we had a family BBQ and Cade and Janelle's house. It was fun. I love spending time with my family. I am so happy to have a family who I get along with so well and we do a good job of having get togethers and spending time together.

Our "happy" family - Chris, Jer, Heather, Ed

Me & Kelly

Cade & Heather

Dinner & A Movie

2008-07-24T11:06:00.000-07:00

I have been working so much the last week or two and it is taking it out of me! I have been so tired but can't sleep. And still not feeling well during the days. After work yesterday, I was soooo tired, but had plans to go with Heidi and Erin to dinner and a movie. Holy Hell it was sooo sooo much fun. I just love being around them and talking to them. We went to Chilies and saw MAma Mia, which I absolutely loved. It was kind of silly and dorky which just made it so funny. Such a cute story line and so much fun to watch with them. You girls are amazing! I love that we are getting together more often now. That's like four times this summer. A record for us : )

The Last Week

2008-07-17T20:10:00.000-07:00

So I have had a busy last week. First, we've been telling everyone the good news and it's been a little exhausting. On Tuesday I went to lunch with Kelly, Payton, Dal, Linda, Jenny and Bailey. Then we went to the park and played and Heidi and Mia came over. It was a lot of fun. I told them I was preggers at lunch and they were really excited. I was fun. Here are some cute pics.

Bailey and Mia - such cute girls!

Heidi and Mia

Jenny, Linda, Dal, Kelly

Payton and Bailey

Payton feeding the birds and Bailey feeding herself. Obviously the popcorn was too good to give to the birds.

On to other things, yesterday was our 4 year anniversary. I can not believe we were married four years ago! We went to a movie (Hancock)and dinner and did some shopping. It was fun but I got so so so sick during the movie that I thought I was dying. Then dinner and shopping wasnt so bad but I got so sick driving home. I was dizzy and so sick to my tummy : (

Happy Anniversary Baby! I love you! Hard to think how much our lives will change next year at this time!

So baby news...There are pros and cons to being pregnant. Cons - I have been so sick for all of you who keep asking. I feel like I'm going to barf a lot and I can't sleep at night. I'm having a hard time getting even half of the protein I'm suppose to have and I'm eating all protein rich foods but meat and that isn't going to change. I'm so gassy and it makes me miserable.

Pros - My boobs are getting huge! I love it. I think that is really the only benefit other than I know I have a baby in me, so it makes it all worth it! Oh, and Jer is being really cute. He is taking care of me an listening to me complain about twenty times a day that I'm going to barf. He also went shopping with me and helped me get some healthier food in the house. He is really supportive and cute - which is definitely a pro! I hope it stays this way!

I AM PREGGERS!!!

2008-07-15T18:17:00.000-07:00

So, as most of you know, I am pregnant! I am so freaking excited I can barely stand it! I tested last saturday and as of tomorrow I should be 5 weeks. I called and set up a doctor's appointment today. They don't want to see me until ten weeks, so I scheduled it for August 22nd. That seems like forever away from now! Is it funny that I'm looking forward to a doctor's appointment? haha.

Thank you, everyone, for your support and good wishes! I love that so many of you are almost as excited as I am! I think that is awesome and really lets me know I have very supportive friends and family! Thank You! Love You ALL!!

I did start a blog for the baby : ) ...of course...so if anyone wants to look at it it is babywootton.blogspot.com

MeMoRieS!!

2008-07-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

This was on my friends blog, so i am putting it on mine:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.All those people that really know me speak up...now is not the time for blurking.

Tagged!

2008-07-06T15:13:00.000-07:00

I don't usually do these things, but Snort tagged me so I can't not do it. haha.

Three things I'm looking forward to in the coming year. . .
1. Getting pregnant?? fingers crossed it will happen in the next year.
2. Start to teach in a new school.
3. Breaking Dawn and Brisinger being released

Three Joys in my life. . .
1. Jeramie
2. My friends & family
3. Having a home and making it our own

Three movies I could watch more than once or twice. . .
1. The Notebook
2. P.S. I Love You
3. 50 First Dates What can I say? I'm a sucker for romance.

Three fears. . .
1. My Own Death
2. Death of loved ones
3. Spiders - which seems so pathetic compared to the other two.

Three favorite foods. . .
1. Ice cream
2. Nachos
3. Cheese - OK. I just realized....not so healthy.

Three goals I have set for myself . . .
1. Be a nuturing, caring, loving, wonderful mother someday
2. Finish school in November and TAKE A BREAK for a while
3. Find new ways to spice up my marriage to make sure it works

Three TV shows I watch. . . (Only 3??? How do I choose? Currently...)
1. So You Think You Can Dance
2. Real World
3. Tori & Dean Home Sweet Hollywood - I may be slightly obsessed with reality TV

Three current obsessions . . .
1. DVR - best invention EVER!
2. Twilight Series - I am rereading to be all refreshed for Breaking Dawn
3. Getting yard work done - well supervising Jer. haha.

Three regrets . . .
1. Not spending enough time with Gentry
2. Letting friends slip away over the years
3. Moving so fast in relationships

Three places I have visited. . .
1. Disneyland
2. Cosumel
3. San Francisco

Three places I'd like to visit. . .
1. Hawaii
2. New York
3. Europe

Three random facts about me. . .
1. I go back to work tomorrow - but just for one day, until next week.
2. I wish I made more money doing what I love
3. I had a shake for breakfast today. yum yum.

Three people I tag. . .
1. Anyone who would like to do it!
2. Ash
3. Tana

Happy 4th of July!

2008-07-05T09:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the 4th of July. It was a very nice, relaxing day. We went to our neighborhood park in the morning with our next door neighbor Steve and his neighbors Steve and Kirsten (which is funny because they grew up with my cousin - small world). It was good to meet some of the people in our neighborhood and they did a flag ceremony. It was fun.

Then we relaxed all day and took a long and well deserved nap. It was deligtful.

Then we went and barbequed with the same neighbors and steve and Kirsten invited a lot of their friends too. We just hung out and watched fireworks. We really have a pretty good view of the valley from our houses and since their deck is up high we sat out there and watched some of the firework shows. There were lots of kids and they were having fun doing fireworks out on the street. It was a fun night. Here are a few pics.

Not as captivating in a pic, but here is our view of the valley.

Firework Fun. haha I'm lame

Hope everyone enjoyed their day!

Fun Day!

2008-06-29T12:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we went to Lagoon. Jer was not excited to go with me, but he went. WE hung out with Savannah and Nathan and two of their friends. We went on a bunch of rides (Can I say Wicked scared the SHIT out of me??) I felt like such a baby and screamed so much in the first few hours that my throat hurt the rest of the day. We don't go there very often but I had sooo much fun! Thanks John for the tickets!!

Then we went to Megan's birthday party. We hung out for a little while then went home when they went to the bar. I wanted to go earlier that day, but after Lagoon I just was too tired. So we came home and went to bed. What a fun day!! Happy Birthday Megan!

Girls' Night In!

2008-06-29T11:26:00.001-07:00

So it seems there are never enough girls nights. Although it is so hard to arrange a time to meet up to fit everyone's schedules they are always so much fun and it would be fun to get together a LOT more often!! Snort, Becky and I have decided to start a new tradition. We will take turns meeting at each other's houses and whose house we meet at is in charge of cooking dinner for us. Then we will hang out for a while. Friday was our first time doing this. We met at Snort's apartment and she made the BEST food. She made homemade Manacotti with a salad and some garlic bread. It was AWESOME!! She is such a great chef. Then we hung out and watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants - haha. We talked a lot and decided to take a "few" pictures to put on our blogs. We took pictures on two cameras, but took 41 pictures on just my camera - I think we get a little picture happy everytime we are together but we laughed for an hour straight taking these pictures. It is like a natural high getting into that mood and having fun and laughing together.

I am only posting a few of the best pictures even though there are a ton of them. Fortunately for all of you who view my blog, my camera battery finally died after the 41 pictures so we were forced to stop taking them. hahaha.

Our "Silly" Faces

Our "High" faces - I know we are weird.

Our "animalistic" faces - Bec cracks me up on this one!!

Um - are you ok? haha

Bec and Snort eating the delicious food. Doesn't it look so yummy?

Our Cute selfs

Our "Weird" Faces

K we obviously weren't ready for this pic. We were posing forever and the camera wouldn't take but it finally did when we weren't ready, but I had to post it because I love Snort's face. She looks so relieved. haha

Yeah...I don't really know what to call these faces.

Our night was really fun! I love you girls and love hanging out with you! It's funny how our lives have changed over the last 5 years. We went from going out dancing five nights a week and getting drunk everytime we were together to meeting at each other's houses and watching movies. Although it is a complete live style change we still have a lot of fun and it is fun to look back and see how much our lives have changed in that short period of time. We all have our own places, all have significant others and are all ready to start families. Wow what a difference five years makes. Wonder where we will be in another five years....

So LAZY!!

2008-06-25T12:21:00.000-07:00

So I don't know what my problem is...I'm really not a lazy person, but the last week I have been SOOOO lazy. I am currently still not showered or dressed today and it is almost 1:30. Jer text me at 12:30 and asked if I wanted to go to lunch, to which my reply was, " I would love to, but I'm not ready." So sad. I am so lame.

I think I have two things to blame for my laziness. One, I have started running and working out again. I am so out of shape and although I'm not "fat" I am not feeling good about the state I have let my body fall into. I wore a bikini the other day and for the first time in a long time actually felt ashamed of myself. So I committed to working out 5 times a week. I am really proud of myself since it has been almost a year but at the same time I am so not motivated to do it. So, I don't shower or get ready until after I have worked out. Since I have no motivation to work out...here I sit.

Two, I have NOTHING to do! Although it is very nice not having to work and have so much free time, there are only so many things for me to do by myself. Since the rest of the world insists on working during my summer break I am very bored. Oh yes, I have plenty of things I can do to get ready for the next school year and plenty of projects around the house, that simply isn't fun.

So, what can I do, looking like crap, in the privacy of my own home, by myself, while trying to convince myself to work out??? Blog! haha. So there you have it. If anyone has a weekday off work and would like to do lunch or swimming or ANYTHING, let me know. My schedule is wide open : )

Family Time!

2008-06-18T15:25:00.000-07:00

So Tuesday we had a family get together with my mom's side of the family. That really doesn't happen very often. We have a big family and I haven't seen most of them for over a year. It was good to see everyone. No one who lives out of town was there, so there were a lot of people missig, but it was still a lot of fun. We are a crazy - somewhat disfunctional bunch. haha.

This is the "kids" table. I don't think my grandma realizes we aren't "kids" anymore. ha ha.

Me and my beautiful sister. We had this get together to meet my uncles fiance. It was funny because she actually asked us who was older. I guess it's good if people can't tell there is a 12 year difference. Two different people that I hadn't met before said they thought I was 16. haha.

Tana, Megan, Me, Billy, Matt (these are the cousins I spent a lot of time with growing up. There are a lot of cousins in our family and I feel I don't know most of them as well as I know these ones)

Me and Megan.

Tana, Megan, Me. I'm glad we are keeping in touch better these days!

Baby Talon!!

2008-06-10T17:11:00.000-07:00

So Shantel had her baby today!! I am so excited for them. They will really be the best parents ever! She was going to be induced today and her water broke on its own ten minutes before she was going to get up to get ready anyway, so he came all natural. haha. It went really fast and before we knew it he was here. He was 6 pounds 14 ounces and 20 inches long. And - so Freaking cute!! I am so so so so happy for them. It was fun to be there when she had them and share the experience with them. I was the only one there that wasn't family and I felt a little awkward, but I loved being there to see Shantel and Nate and I feel honored to have been able to share that time with them.

Baby Talon - about 20 minutes old.

The happy family - Shantel looks soooo good for just giving birth!

Talon's first bath! So cute - he cried most the time and was shivering. It was so cute.

You guys have such a beautiful baby!! Congratulations! Love you guys!!

Hanging with Ashlie

2008-06-09T19:42:00.001-07:00

So today I was able to hang with my friend Ashlie who is in town from St. George. We went to the mall and went shopping then went and had dinner. It was a lot of fun to see her. Although I have seen her quite often over the last few years, this is the first time we have hung out and gone and done something - just the two of us. It was really fun. She is such a great friend and a great mom! Love you Ash!!

I got to see Ember's baby today while I was over there to get Ash. Holy hell new born babies are small!! She is 5 lb 14 oz but she is soooo tiny! She is soooooooooooo cute! I want one. haha.

Picnic

2008-06-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

So, on Saturday I got together with my friends from the U and we had a picnic. It was actually pretty cold outside and not June weather, but we had fun! I love hanging out with them and catching up!

Last Day of Work

2008-06-04T19:07:00.000-07:00

As I was getting ready to write this I was thinking - Shantel and Ashlie both just had their last days of work also. Must be a theme with my friends right now : )

Today was my last day of work at Peruvian. It was a good day other than I felt like crap. I woke up this morning with the worst cramps in my tummy. It felt like someone stuck a knife in me and would twist it every couple of minutes and it seriously about took me down every time. I couldn't even stand. It was miserable. If it wasn't my last day and the kids' last day I think I may have called in sick. And I never do that! But I made it in and soon as Rita and Marti came in with gifts for me I broke down and started crying. I was emotional cuz I didn't feel well and it didn't help it was my last day. Marti got me a plant and some nice pens and Rita made me a really nice book where everyone who cares about me there wrote me a nice letter and they are all in a scrapbook. It was such a nice book that I really appreciate. Something that I will definitely hold on to. Thanks Rita!!

Then we went to lunch after school. I didn't know if I was really up to it, but I was feeling a lot better. Then I had to go sign out with my principal, Laura, and I broke down again! There was a lot of crying today. I am really going to miss all the wonderful people there!! Althought my new school will have wonderful people too, no one will match up to the people at Peruvian or the experiences I have had during my first 4 years of teaching. I have learned so much from all of them!! I love you all and will miss you! I will definitely keep in touch!!

Now I'm out for summer. The next school year starts on August 18th for me, since I am on D track. So I still have quite a long summer. We have a few professional development days in July and we can do our classrooms and move all our things in, so I will probably be working a lot in July. Until then, I have a lot of free time and want to catch up on some reading and some school projects. I would also love to do lots of lunches, if people are interested let me know : ) Oh - and Shantel is having her baby any day now so I plan on spending lots of time with her!

Family Pictures!

2008-06-01T20:32:00.000-07:00

On mother's day this year my whole family got together and got family pictures taken. We just got them back. They turned out really cute, so I thought I would post them.
Here are all the grandkids. I wish I could have one to add. haha!

The two in the middle are John's kids and the two on the sides are Daniels.
Chase, Michael, Alexia, Hailey

John and his family. His wife couldn't be there because she was working.

All 5 of us kids

Daniel, his wife, and two kids

The whole family.

Jer and I

Another Busy Weekend

2008-06-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

So it was another busy weekend this weekend. I went out to lunch on Saturday with my friend Shantel. She is ready to "pop" any day now! She is such a great friend and a great person. She will make a fabulous mom. I love you Shantel and you are the greatest friend I could ever ask for! I can't wait until she has baby Talon. She has decorated her nursery so cute. I didn't get a picture of us this weekend : (

Then I went over to my friend Jen's house. Her sister was throwing her a goodbye party because she is going to Logan for school this summer. It was fun to hang with her and other girls I work with. It is great to see them outside of work!

Judy, me and Jen

Me and Jen - I will miss you over summer!

Then I went and picked up Savannah. She started her first job on Saturday. She is working at a Snowie station at the U of U. She has a job - she is growing up so fast : ) I love her to death and loved spending all day Sunday with her. We did a lot of shopping at Gateway!!

Savannah and her friend Kelsie who works with her.

We went to my cousin Payton's birthday party. She is 7 and also growing up so fast. I bought her a jump rope and some other things but she really seemed to enjoy the jump rope. By the way, I am an expert "rope jumper" haha! I was telling them that I won the entire 5th grade at the jump-a-thon last year.

Here is Payton - so cute : )

Me and Payton

Me and Dahlia

Then Savannah and I went and saw Baby Mama. It was cute, but not as good as the preview made it look. It was a good movie with a good ending, but very predictable. Overall, it was a good weekend and very busy. A great weekend for Jer to be out of town! : )

My sister and me. So cute!! : )

Love everyone!!

Memorial Day Weekend

2008-05-26T19:28:00.001-07:00

This weekend was a lot of fun! We stayed in town and didn't have many plans, but we stayed busy and had fun!

Friday night we went out to dinner and had a very nice night. I even got him to talk about having babies. haha. Saturday I went to lunch with my cousins, Tana and Megan. It was great to catch up and hang out with them. Jer and I ran a bunch of errands and we got pretty damn bored so we went and got some movies. We watched Hitman (dumb) and 27 Dresses (very cute). Sunday we worked in the yard then went to Jer's mom's house for dinner and a game night. It was seriously the most fun I have had in a long time! We played Pictionary and Gestures. Here are some pictures of us playing Gestures. See if you can guess what the person is acting out.

This was his "mad" face - this was hilarious because Allen couldn't guess it and he was really getting mad!

This is Jer's mom doing "mistletoe."

"Mascara" Duh...so obvious. haha

Megan doing "body builder."

Allen doing "shadow." Is it just me or are the girls much better at this game? HAHA I guess that is why we kicked butt!

Monday we had plans to go to Gentry's grave, but that didn't happen with all the rain, so we went to dinner with my grandma, grandpa, Kelly, Payton and Dahlia. It was fun. Then Jer and I went and saw What Happens In Vegas. It was really cute and very funny. I liked it a lot. Then we came home and rode our 4-wheelers around the neighborhood for a while and I went up and peeked in the windows at my new school. I'm kind of disapointed because the classrooms are way smaller than my class is now and I dont think there is a nice storage area like I have now. But it is a very nice school. I hope it's done in time for school to start in July!

Well that is my weekend! It was a blast!

One of my very best friends, Ashlie, got a new neice today. Ember had a baby girl - Congrats Ember!! Can't wait to see baby McKinlee.

Yard Work!!

2008-05-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

So we got a little yard work done this weekend. We got the cement on the side of our house poured finally and it looks so much better! Jer is really not that romantic or even thoughtful sometimes but he put our initials in it and it looks cute - what a sweetheart! : ) Love ya babe!Thanks to Jer's mom, Mary, we got flowers planted in our flower bed - I knew nothing about flowers, so I learned a lot. haha. It is so cute, but I can't wait until they all get bigger and take up more of the flower bed. We also put a lot of grass in the back yard. Jer had to go get three truck loads of dirt to just do how much we did because the ground was so much lower. It is has been a long long long day and I am fried - literally!! I put sun screan on but only once and I look like a lobster with some funny marks. My hands are white because I was wearing gloves and I have a nice tank top line. I'm so mad I got burnt. I didn't even thing about it!! Arg. After about 11 hours in the yard, I am ready to go to bed!

My cute hubby - he worked SO hard today!

Our new grass - most of this section used to be dirt. We have two more sections this size to do something with now. Our side flower bed - I love that bush in the middle. It is sooo pretty. We planted the one on the right. It is suppose to be the same kind as the middle, but pink flowers. You can't really see the flowers in the bed, but we put some there. The cute plant.Our newly cemented side. It looks so much better!Our front flower bed. It is much prettier in person and will be even better in a few weeks when they grow some.

These are my sympathy pictures - hurts and my skin is sooo hot to touch. It would have helped if I wasn't so ghostly white to start with!

Stephenie Meyer

2008-05-17T15:26:00.000-07:00

So I just got home from meeting Stephenie Meyer, the author of the Twilight Series and The Host (her newest book). I went with my friend Heidi and we went early because they were doing a signing before and after. We were in group 23 and I thought there wouldn't be that many people there and we could get it signed then leave after she gave her talk. YEAH RIGHT! We showed up at 11, she started signing at 11:30 and stoped at 12:30, and she was only to group 10. We weren't even close! So we went early for nothing. She talked for about 20 minutes then we waited another two hours to get our books signed. It was ridiculous, but it was fun to see her and get my book signed - I'm a little dorky about the whole thing and that is ok. haha. She just answered questions, but she is very entertaining and she told a few funny stories. I was a little disappointed because I thought she was going to read from The Host, but she didn't. It was still great though! Here are some fun pics!

IDOL!!!

2008-05-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

So American Idol just got over for tonight and the two finalists are David Archuleta and David Cook!! Yay - I knew it would be the battle of the Davids! Although they are both awesome, I am really routing for David Archuleta!! He has such an amazing voice and I love the humbleness he has to him! I was seriously clapping and screaming when Ryan announced his name as a finalist and I am sitting home alone. What a dork! O-well.

Good luck to both Davids!!

Anyone want to do an Idol finale party? Snort - I know you will do it with me!! We should get a bunch of people together and watch next Wednesday together!! Please let me know if you would want to join - otherwise, Snort, it might just be you and me. haha but that is ok too!

Happy Mother's Day!!

2008-05-14T19:06:00.001-07:00

Hello to all the mother's out there! I want to wish all my friends and family a Happy Mother's Day! I appreciate all of you and know you all work so hard being great moms! Maybe one day I will be able to be a mom too - haha : ) I hope you all had great days and were treated like royalty!

I went to lunch at my Aunt Linda's on Saturday then we went and got family pictures done for my mom and went and got some dinner and ate with her. Then on Sunday we took Jeramie's mom to Chilies then bowling. It was a lot of fun. My average at bowling was an amazing 73. I hate bowling, but it was fun. I got two strikes and about 17 gutter balls in the two games we played - I'd like to see someone beat that! haha

Everything else is going great. I am so busy at work and need to start packing all of my things up. We have about 10 projects in our yard started, but not completed. So it has been busy, but things have been good. Hope everyone is well!

Misc

2008-05-05T08:07:00.000-07:00

So feels like forever since I have put a post on here, but its only been about a week. haha. A few things...

1. Welcome Linda to the blogging world!! Love you and can't wait to start seeing regular blog entries : )

2. I had my next doc appointment, with the cardiologist. Once again all the tests came back fine but he wanted to put me on a two week heart monitor, but since I really dont think anything is wrong and he didn't either I decided against it for now. now my next doc apt is with a psychiatrist. Maybe that will help. haha.

3. This weekend we went to the sand dunes. I didn't take any pictures because my camera was dead...so sad. But we had a great time. We went with Chris & Jenny and Adam & Erin and their mom and step dad. It was a lot of fun and best of all...me and Jer didn't fight the entire time!! Not even one argument - that is seriously like a world record, haha, which made the trip very enjoyable. Unfortunately the battery in my bike died before we were there so we bought a charger but my bike wouldn't take a charge, so I couldn't ride it at all. So, I rode a lot with Jer and hung out at camp. It was very relaxing and nice!!

Test Results!

2008-04-29T19:03:00.000-07:00

So I had an apt with my neurologist today to go over my test results. Everything came back negative, but I am slightly low on vitamin D - guess I need to hang out in the sun more : )

I still have to go see a cardiologist Thursday and if he says everything looks fine then I am going to go see a psychologist. I asked if it might be panic attacs/anxiety (like Amy left in my comments - thanks Amy) and he says he possibly thinks so. But he also said it is important to do the tests and rule out more serious things that can have similar side effects. So the psychologist is suppose to be able to help me not have these types of attacks.

That is all for now : )

Fun Pics!

2008-04-27T18:37:00.001-07:00

So I went through a bunch of old pics recently and here are some cute ones that I really like. Just for fun : )

Me and Jer with Scully. This is in Disney Land this last summer.

Jer in Disney Land - I love this picture!!

Me and Megan. So cute and ready to attack!

Me riding my 4 wheeler. I dont ride it much, so I thought I would post it.

Me, Jer, Steve, and Kirstin (our neighbors). Randomly they are good friends with my cousin and we met for the first time at my uncles party - even though they only lived two houses down from us. Random.

Me and Jer at my Uncle Ed's "Roarin" party!
My Aunt Kelly, me, and my Aunt LindaJenny and Me
HAHA! Love this picture. This is at our honeymoon, on the cruise ship. Jer was SOO mad because he couldn't figure out the life jacket. The funny thing is he really got upset. I love laughing at this picture (even though it wasn't so funny at the time).
Me and Megan - Halloween 2006
So fun to hang with the girls!
Ready to PARTY!! Rachel, Me, Megan, Susan Me and Snort TC, Me and Snort napping at Becky's wedding. haha.
Bec and me
Ok - Seriously, how adorable were we? This picture is Cade, Gentry, me, and Simran. Back when we were the only four cousins. It was takin about 22 years ago! Cute!

Baby Shower/Bar

2008-04-27T07:58:00.000-07:00

This weekend I went to a baby shower for my good friend Ashlie's sister. She is so cute pregnant! It was really good to see ashlie and her sisters. I dont see them very often.

Later they were going to go watch Ember's husband fight (a UFC thing) and go to The Hotel after. So I got one of my friends (Snort) to go with me just to the bar, I'm not a fan on watching the fighting. It seriously makes my physically sick. It was a lot of fun seeing her and hanging out with her. I haven't been to the bar in a while and it was really interesting to people watch. It is funny to think that we use to be so into all of that. It was a fun trip down memory lane! haha

Jer getting ready - isn't he cute?? haha : )

So we are slightly addicted to taking a bunch of random pictures.

Test Time!

2008-04-23T17:23:00.000-07:00

So, I had a lot of tests to get done today. I first went and got an EEG test. The guy put a bunch of electrodes on my face, head and chest. Then I just sat there for about 20 minutes.Then he had me hyperventilate and that pretty much sucked. I got light headed but it went away when I stopped. Then he flashed these really really bright lights in my eyes and gave me a headache. Then I went to another place by there and got 2 MRI's done. The first one was of my brain and the second was of my neck. That was pretty painless, otehr than the shot of contrast they had to give me. The did the same things on my MRA's, but this time it really didn't bother me at all. I didn't get any results back, but I did get about 30 X-rays that I have no idea how to read, but I'm sure my doctor can help with that!

John went with me and kept me company in between visits while I was waiting. He came just in case I passed out or didn't feel well enough to drive home, but luckily I am fine : ) Thank you John, for coming and spending part of your day sitting in a waiting room! I really appreciate it!

I also found out today that I will be on D track at the new school. I really wanted A, but my team leader took A. So the next best, or so I hear, is D track. The sucky part is they dont start the school year with everyone else. That is partly nice because I get a longer summer, but really annoying because I wont be there for the first of school. I think that is really going to annoy me!! But owell we will see how it goes!

Love you all!!

Sunday Project

2008-04-20T18:37:00.000-07:00

So today we decided to finish a project that I started a couple weekends ago. It turned out cute. It used to be grass and a flower bed. We put some new grass down but we ran out so there is still some dirt, but I will finish that at a later time.

Blood Work

2008-04-19T18:38:00.000-07:00

Today I went and got my blood work done. It was a crappy experience. We got there and the guy got me checked in and started taking my blood. I told him I get lightheaded sometimes when I give blood, but he insisted that I would be fine. After about 5 tubes of blood, I told him I was getting lightheaded and started breathing hard. He said I was fine and just breath normal. And I said, "I'm going to pass out NOW!" and I always stick to my word. haha. So I passed out. Jer said I was out about 15 seconds and my body was being weird and cramping up and stuff. I remember having a really weird dream and was so confused when I came back.

After, I was SOO shaky and hot then cold then hot then cold and so forth. I still had to drink a glucose drink and get my blood taken three more times, over three hours. So I drank it even though I didnt feel well. It made me sick to my stomache on top of already feeling crappy. I did my best at not throwing up but 45 min later, up it came into the guys garbage can. So he took my blood one more time, but we couldnt finish thetest so I hope I dont have to go back and do it again. I went home and napped for a while then we went and ate and I went back to bed for a few more hours. At 4:30 today I decided to get out of bed, but I am still really sick to my stomach and just feel weak and out of it. It REALLY scared me. I was so out of it and weird feeling for so long that I got really scared. I will get my results in a week and a half when I go back to my doc. I will keep everyone posted.

Oh yeah, I also hurt my foot. One of the first things I said when I "woke up" was, "ouch, my foot hurts!" It was eally red then went away. Now it is just scratched but it hurts like hell. I hope it bruises so I have evidence of the pain. haha. If it does I will post a picture - it might help with the sympathy. haha.

Welcome Ashlie!!

2008-04-19T15:04:00.000-07:00

Hello to all my friends and family. I would like to welcome my good friend Ashlie into the blogging world!! She just stared her first blog and I am SUPER excited!! Warning to you Ash, it is VERY addicting!! But you will love it and I am so excited to start seeing pics of your cute kids! Ashlie has been my friend since 4th grade. She lived just down the street from me when we were kids and we were inseperable until she moved when we were in 7th grade. She was my very first "best friend." Fortunately, we have kept in touch over the years even though she lives in St. George. I'm going to dig out some old pics and try to add them later : )

Note to Shantel, Cassie and Linda - If Ash could start one, you girls should too!! SERIOUSLY!! : ) Love you all!

How Smart Are You??

2008-04-18T06:51:00.001-07:00

K This is a tricky test. I did pretty well if I do say so myself. My results were:

You GOT a score of 10 out of 11
Your rating: Wow! You must read a lot!

Now Here's the Twist, your answers not only can tell your current intelligence, but can also forecast your upcoming love life:

Your Projected Love Life: Your love life is mediocre

Um, how can it tell my love life? Darn. HAHA. You should try the test and see how you do! (Link below)

Click here: How Smart Are You?

Another Doctor Visit?? MY HELL!!

2008-04-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

So, as most of you know, I have had a TON of doctor visits lately. I've had a lot of chiropractor visits, a few neurologists and quite a few to my family doctor trying to figure out what is going on with my health. It all started about 2 1/2 months ago. I started getting really bad headaches - worse than usual - and getting shaky and had a pounding heart a lot. My head would feel a numbness at night and it would wake me up at night. It got worse at nights and it is really scary. So I've been seeing docs trying to figure out what is going on. I didn't like the neurologist I was seeing he just said that it was nothing and I would be fine. So, I found a new neurologist.

I went to my first appointment yesterday. He actually seems to be worried, so I feel better that he really wants to figure out what is wrong. He spent over an hour talking to me yesterday and I felt like he was really interested and was going to help me get better. So that is good.

So this is what my future looks like: I have to give blood on Sat from 8 am to noon - I have to have a glucose drink and stay there and they will take my blood every hour for 3 hours (And by the way I need an adult to go with me cuz I will be fasting and possible for me to pass out with my history so if I have any volunteers that would be fabulous). Then I have to get an EEG test and two MRI tests next week. Then I have to meet with a cardiologist the next week to check my heart and have a check up with my new neurologist again to see if anything has changed and go over all my testing results. Hopefully we can find out what's going on with all those tests, unfortunately I have to pay 20% of all of them because I am on the cheapest insurance plan (that is what I get!!), but it is worth it to me to get feeling better. Frustrating...

The thing that makes me the most sad is that I really want to have a baby. My first neurologist said, "just get preg. it wont hurt you and maybe it will make the symptoms go away." The second neurologist said, "You really need NOT to get pregnant, because this will likely put you at a high risk pregnancy." I am ready to start a family and who knows how long this will all be before we figure everything out. Kinda sad about that, but don't want to risk my health either. : (

NEW JOB - PART DUCE!!

2008-04-11T17:45:00.000-07:00

So the principal of the new schook, Jordan Ridge, called me on Monday to tell me that I didnt get the job - but should would like to hire me for "assistant team leader." She can't officially hire me yet because the job was still posted online and she had to wait until the job closed and interview three more people for it before she could offer it to me, but she wanted me to know that she intends on hiring me.

Karen - my almost new boss - called me today to say she could only get two interviews in today so she is hoping to set one up for Monday and then she can call and offer me the job, but she has every intention on hiring me next week. So that is exciting!

Now my only worry is what track I will get, since it is a year round school. I really want A track because they start with everyone else but get out earlier for a longer summer. D track starts later but ends with everyone else. I want A because it is sooo my personality to want to be there for the first few weeks of school, but at the same time it might be a lot less stress to just be on D and miss all that because it is always soooo damn busy those first couple weeks. So who knows. I just cant wait to actually sign papers saying I got the job so that it is for sure. I am excited for the change though. I will miss everyone I work with now, but it will be a good change for me!!

Rough Day

2008-04-06T12:23:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like you are in this world alone? I am married and have friends and a fantastic family, but sometimes I just feel like I am all alone. Sometimes I feel like I should be doing so much more with my life and should have more important things filling my time. I feel like I need some people in my life that I talk to everyday and tell everything to...It seems I hold so much in and sometimes I just want to burst! I tell my friends a lot but we dont talk everyday and I feel like since we have grown up and started families and got into serious relationships we all have more going on in our lives and its hard to make time for each other.

I just feel like I really want to be really important to someone - I'm sure I'm important to all my family and friends, but I want to be someone's number one, the person they tell everything to and they talk everyday and can always turn to, no matter what time, day, etc. I dont feel I've been close to my mom or my dad and since I have grown up I haven't been able to have that close relationship to anyone. I feel sad about it.

Its been a rough day...and that is ok, just needed to share my thoughts. Is this normal? Advice?

On a lighter note, here is a cute pic...made me smile.

Friends!!

2008-04-06T12:16:00.000-07:00

This weekend Becky, Snort (Courtney) and I had a chance to hang out. Seems like our schedules are always so conflicting and its hard to find a time for all of us to hang. They came to my house and we talked for a bit and scared Jer away - he obviously didn't want to be involved in all the girl talk. haha.

Then we went to Chillies for dinner. We got hyper and were taking lots of pictures. The people in the table next to us were laughing at us, but it was fun. It felt like we hadn't seen each other forever even though it had only been like 6 weeks. Thats too long though. Our dinner together reminded us of the good ol' days when we were 21. It was really fun and so great to see them.

Snort posing for the camera!

Cute Girls!!!!!!!!!!!
Then we went back to my house and hung out and caught up. We all have so much going on in our lives right now. I love hearing about how all of us are growing and changing so much since we first started hanging out! While we were talking at my house, Becky decided we weren't entertaining enough, so she had to crochet...haha!! Seriously Bec, do you go anywhere without your yarn?? She came in with a whole seperate bag holding all of her crocheting things. It really was funny!

I miss seeing you girls on a regular basis!! We need to make it a point to hang AT LEAST once a month!! Love you both!! (Bec and Snort - I posted all the pics I took so feel free to copy them from my blog).

New Job!

2008-04-05T09:01:00.000-07:00

So, I interviewed for a new job yesterday! Jordan District is building a new school about 1 minute from my house. Currently, I am travelling 30-45 minutes to and from work, depending on traffic. I have figured I spend over 100 dollars in gas just driving to and from work and spend over 24 hours every month driving to and from work - that is an entire day in my car!! Not to mention all the miles I am putting on my cars and the wear and tear.

Although I ablsolutely LOVE the school I am at now - I love my principal, my team, all the people who work there, the students and so many great things are happening there, I believe it would benefit me to transfer to the new school since it is so close to my house. I never wanted to transfer because I hate being the new person who doesn't know what is going on. I HATE being in the dark! So, with this being a new school, everyone is learning together and I would have more of a say in how to set the school up. It would be very exciting! So I see this as my chance to move schools. Unfortunately though it is a year round school. Blah, but maybe I would love it! Who knows...

Yesterday I had an interview with the principal of the new school, a 6th grade teacher and a literacy facilitator for the 5th grade team leader position. I was well prepared for my interview since my principal sat down with me for a half hour and helped me prepare - geez, seems like she is trying to get rid of me! haha - JK I know she loves me. The interview went well but I realized there are a lot of people applying for the fifth grade position. Since I have so much less experience than a lot of them, I am starting to doubt that I will get the job. Which I dont really mind, I just want to at least work on the fifth grade team, even if I dont get the team leader position. I dont know when I will find out, but I am very nervous!! I hate not knowing where I will be next year!

Big Kids In A Big Sandbox

2008-03-24T16:13:00.000-07:00

This weekend, for Easter, we went to the Sand Dunes. We went with my cousins Chris & Jenny, Adam & Erin and a bunch of their friends and family. We got down there Friday night and as we were pulling up Jer's hitch came off his truck. The whole thing came unwelded from the bed and fell on the ground. Not a great way to start the weekend, but we are soooo lucky it didn't come off on the freeway. That would have been disasterous!!

We did a lot of riding on Saturday and it was a lot of fun!! I rode with Jer the whole day and didn't even get on my bike once. I really need to learn how to ride the thing so I'm not so scared to be on it, but it just seeemed like we didn't have time this weekend because we were with other people, riding, the whole day. And we had to go find someone with a welder to weld Jer's hitch back on. Here are a few pics of our weekend. I didn't take many for some reason.

Jer Riding

Jer and Me

Chris and JennyChris riding. I think this is a cool pic.

Lunch With Friends

2008-03-24T16:08:00.000-07:00

On Friday, I got together with my friends from the U. We all went through the Master's Degree program together and we try to all get together and have lunch every couple months. This is Josh, Me, Erin, Heidi, and baby Mia. Nicole couldn't make it, like usual, and we are beginning to feel like we are not good enough for her - haha. jk.

Death to Mrs. Wootton

2008-03-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

So I was reminded the other day of a pleasant student I once had (that is an exaggeration!!) and a pleasant experience I had with him. So three years later, the other teachers in my school still remember and brought it up. I finally had got over the event and raised my self-esteem. haha jk. Can I say I have never been more hated by a student ever in my life and I hope I never am hated that much again.

One day a student said this particular student was drawing evil pictures of me. So I confronted him and he denied - of course. I told him I wanted the picture and after some threats (haha - jk) I got it from him. It is the funniest picture ever and after being reminded of it, I dug it out of my "box." Let me explain. There is a helicopter in the sky with me hanging, from a noose. On the ground below me is a pond with a "hungry alligator" looking up at me. Over to the side is my wonderful, loving student. He is holding a gun, aiming it at me, going to shoot the noose so I fall to the hungry alligator, to my death. Seriously the funniest picture ever and to give him some credit, it was really well thought out. Here is it's debut...

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